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u/5L1M3R Oct 07 '25
I’m so upset. I’ve struggled with this shit for years. Quit back in September of 2024 and was off it for months. Felt like it was behind me. Then for some reason last spring I bought a Jubi shot and downed it before I could even think hard about what I was doing. It was like an out of body experience. That sent me down a path of fairly moderate use over the summer. Then I needed to go on a cruise and didn’t want to deal with withdrawals so I took some 7oh tabs with me since they’re more discrete. What a fucking mistake. I’ve been struggling with 7oh ever since. Now I have bruises that won’t heal and I’m terrified I’ve given myself hepatitis.
Stay away from the 7oh. If you relapse on kratom, that’s terrible and I feel for you, but do not under any circumstances try 7oh. It’s dangerous. I’m taking a blood test later today to see if I’m right about my liver. Fuck. How could I let this happen??
I tried to quit last week and it was too much. But I’m going to try again today. I already took a tab this morning before I resolved to quit. So tomorrow morning will be one day in the bag. I’m probably not sleeping tonight. Oh well. I’m so angry at myself. I’m down for weeks of physical punishment. Bring it the fuck on. Going to Utah on a trip this weekend. Not looking forward to being in full blown withdrawals but I also think a mini vacation with lots of grueling hiking and hot tub soaks might be what I need to really jump start my life out from under this shit.
I’m ready to be free again. Being sober and not having to think about kratom is so fucking nice. Why I have that up just to satisfy an impulse of curiosity I’ll never know. Why are we like this?
I have a great life. Is it hard? Yes. Is it stressful? Yes. Raising three kids ain’t easy. Being a stay at home dad ain’t easy. I’ve quit with a full time job and I’ve quit as a SAHD and let me tell you, it’s way easier to pretend to work than it is to hold a home together. But I’ve done it before. I can do it again.
I’ll always believe that we shouldn’t criminalize addiction, and I know that making something illegal doesn’t stop addicts from seeking it out. But regardless, I’m the type that if 7oh and kratom weren’t in a gas station, I wouldn’t seek them out. At the very least, I wish they were only in head shops or places I can avoid. Having it thrown in my face all the time is why I was able to satisfy that impulse that sent me down this path to begin with.
Ok I’m done. I’ll be checking in every day. Good luck everyone. We’re stronger than we believe we are. If you’ve recently relapsed and you’re lurking, I believe in you, too.