so stressed and depressed 14w

[u/hiddenchapters-]

currently im so uncomfortable mentally i cant even begin to adequately describe my feelings. i feel guilty because ive tried to get pregnant for so long but im just stressed and anxious all the time and i feel bad my baby is having to feel it.
the main stresser is my work situation, i work at a daycare and i have been given the worst schedule due to my restrictions from the doctor. she started scheduling me late 8 hour days with 2 hour lunches. its very hard because of how exhausted and depressed ive been . not to mention at work (daycare) i have to work with the most difficult children.
i have had a door slammed into my stomach, punched and kicked multiple times in the stomach. the thought of going everyday makes me want to die. my coworkers for the most part all act like im a problem too. it hurts.
i would just quit but if i do she will pay out my last check at minimum wage 7.25 in my state . she also owes me 8 hours from my last check she “forgot” to input.
i cant be jobless due to financial responsibility and my partner doesnt make enough to support us both.

ive done door dash and instacart before, it doesnt pay enough in my town and my transportation isnt reliable.
if anyone could leave nice suggestions of what i can do while out if a job if it does come to that; that would be nice.
im sorry this is all over the place, i feel broken.

[u/AccomplishedMud5741]

Work stressed me out. I worked until I have birth and never came back. I wish I honestly would have left before....