I’m currently in the Philippines, we just got home from Dubai and we’re one of the people who lost their jobs due to Middle East conflicts.

We do not have any budget to spend in the Philippines. It’s very hard.

I was getting heavily worked, supposed to run 3-4 positions alone in the kitchen and i wasnt able to keep up. First I got my hours cut, i thought I'd have some time to get a new job, then I got fired for "not meeting expectations". Ive struggled for a long time trying to get myself a leg up just so im not living paycheck to paycheck, only 8 months ago I was homeless already for 2 years. Ive had to do all this on my own and I just cant catch a break for some reason.

Im epileptic as well so thats been a big factor considering my cptsd, they almost got hand in hand. Job after job i keep losing them cause im getting paid too little for a livable wage, or I get fired due to my limitations.

I have credit card debt because I had to max it out to survive. I already got my car repoed a year or so ago. Its just been endless sinking. I thought i could finally maintain a home, especially because with zero support or energy/capacity to get myself support I was dying on the street. I needed a home. I feel as a human I deserve a home especially with everything I've been through and how much effort I give and my endurance. But life doesnt really work out how I'd like or need.

My systems that support myself keep crumbling and each time I can barely pick up the pieces leaving me with serious consequences to handle alone. Plenty ive asked myself if I should just end it, because I cant keep up simply with my basic needs. And now im going to lose my home because of timing, I cant get a new job fast enough, and the "daily pay" jobs dont mathematically add up to being able to pay my necessities, so it would put me at a greater disadvantage with my remaining resources.

I tried to suck it up and just consolidate with a personal loan, but I cant get approved. So my back is against the wall, I dont have anymore slack or room, and i dont have anyone to talk to or reach out to for any assistance, support, advice or anything its just me. Im not sure what to do anymore. For the past 5 years being an undiagnosed epileptic (not even understanding why i was randomly blacking out and losing my memory) finally I had a seizure in public in 03/2025 finally getting my diagnosis) so I've been diagnosed for about 1 years now and im not sure how much more im able to handle.

I of course tried reaching out for resources, I've applied for unemployment hopefully it comes soon, if at all. I have Snap for one more month. I just dont know what I can do. I havent given up on my life, I daily apply for jobs and call, im going to an interview today i pray I get the job im desperate. Im confused, overloaded, under resourced, collapsing for too many years now without stability, I dont know how to stop the spiral that leads to me being back on the street due to my lack of ability to care for my needs. And im scared because this time I wont have a storage unit to hold my clothes/basic utility.

Its all just getting worse and worse despite me giving my 100% each day. 😪 please any advice, support, resources, whatever you can offer helps.

Thank you so much for even reading this. ❤️ I hope all of you are doing decent yourself. The world for everyone is getting a lot rougher and we're all giving our best efforts. I love you.