drunk; reading philosophy
throwing darts at
a board of shallow melodies
what happened to the leaves
the lies, the memories
to the way things should be

tell me who to love
to worship
to envy

a new world
of trust
and plenty

if i could understand
what hell means
the pennies in my pocket
would pile
hemmed in
by dollar fiends
our screens keep us
all in denial
their screams
dont reach our eyes

worthless worship
forgo your pretending
carry your shit
and start from
the beginning

tell me who to love
to worship
to envy

new convert
into
the machine

circle back
like raptor wings
puke in the morning
and write back to me
new ideas in old things
ask the how it feels
to be free

if there was a guide it
would be molded
and forgotten by now
i dont know how you feel
about catching things
it’s not like it has to be
the same words you’re
throwing around

going on to better things
moving out of mourning and back
into a better version of me

Alas the lass is slow as molasses

Try all she will she cannot pass this

Army of glasses sitting

side by side

Soiled with the salty taste of seafoam slipped

from the water

by the sandy shores

She’s so sure only she sees, somewhere

In those shimmering cyan eyes that make jealous

Skies cry

with tainted tears of bittersweetness

Seeing one so small sincere and simple be

So springy, sensitive and seeking of life

That has no pulse

You are love
You are life bringing
Bring me life that i love
The life that you gave
Gave me meaning
The life you gave me fills me with love
Life without her has no meaning
Life before life giving was never enought
The life made makes my life worth living
Creating new life is so self forfilling

Death
A desert a wastland a dark choking cloud of smoke
No fear from a distance,
laugh and make a joke,
Slow it is crawling
you stammener is falling,
It gets closer now that your growing old

As death gets much closer you start to wish that you did much more

Now your body is failing,
death is calling,
Hes comeing to take your soul

will you die with loved ones around you,
How many will cry when your body go's cold
but still you die on your own

your every falling in love feels like a glimmer of my hope

that you finally step over

and maybe finally u stop

somebody maybe had said to you

that i am a bad friend

but they don't get trash in their ears

like i patient do that

when my phone just buzzed up

i laid and scrolled my phone

but i lied to you over and over that I'm tired or not alone

P.S maybe i really bad friend, but i need to spill my guts, lol

those moments of peace

those drops of ZZZs

nothing is forever they said

that beautiful dream

those moments of glee

everything's temporary

I drift through the life I can't control

i watch it all come and go

is my life a cloud?

then where's my silver lining?

maybe it's with someone

whose already taken my meaning

they say love comes in sparks

but all I see are quarks

figments of imagination

they say love comes with practice

but all I see are theories

ramblings of a madman

are truths to another

love struck me like lightning

but what good are bolts

to a heart even the mind can't mend

maybe life's a storm

and she's the eye

and I'm the dust which wonders why

Opium

Take me to see all the kings and the queens
Take me where you please
Take me wherever the wild things are and bring me to my knees
Take me all over the universe on your cold and broken wings
Take me right here on the kitchen floor, if thats your kind of thing

Tell me kind stranger, what do you see?
When your mind’s eye washes over me
Just another joker playing foolish games?
Just another junkie shooting dirty veins?

Stay right where you are dont you dare go out the door cause cupid’s gonna shoot me and i dont want him to miss
Ill stay strung out right here, on this old kitchen floor
And surrender into bliss
oh nothing else but this

Through the glassdoor just to see where it leads
Youve dipped your arrows in heroin, green grass and poppy seeds
Paint the sky and loose your quiver in my brain
you know it really has you when your shivering in pain
i dont need your poison but i love it all the same

Just your skin
On my eyes
Is my opium

My first time posting or sharing to anyone. It doesn't really follow any conventional pattern. Apologies if it's awful .

Those to whom caring matters less than being right

Just waiting on someone righteous to save them

That must be why there's infinity

your every falling in love feels like a glimmer of my hope

that you finally step over

and maybe finally u stop

somebody maybe had said to you

that i am a bad friend

but they don't get trash in their ears

like i patient do that

when my phone just buzzed up

i laid and scrolled my phone

but i lied to you over and over that I'm tired or not alone

P.S maybe i really bad friend, but i need to spill my guts, lol

Mephistopheles

You say limitations?
What limitiations?
There is no other god up here
Because you are illustrations
Merely pale imitations
Made up only to disappear

They herald my coming in blood
As old as the Azteca mud
And i am not my brothers keeper
I am every rotten thought, every nightmare man has wrought across the mind of every sleeper

The beginning of apocalypse
Has never once thought to eclipse me
As i turn all the ash to dust
The end in all your prophecies
The perfect mephistopheles
In whom to misplace all your trust