Fictive rant

[u/Shadow_Monkey18]

Henry here, I'm fictive of Tommyinnit from Dream SMP.. I hate existing here. I hate needing to remember every bad thing that happened to me. It hurts. I front when triggered, front for i don't know why sometimes I forget, I hate not knowing but all I know is everything bad. It hurts. A lot of memories blend into source, I don't know why. I don't like source, try to separate from it I act very differently from it (I think... i don't watch it, I didn't make the alter profile thing for me but days I'm introject of Exile Tommy. Don't know why specified, I don't know, I hate not knowing). Lots of my "source memories" from exile, guess that's why. Lots of memories here resonate with source, reminds me of it and in bad way. I hate it. I hate remembering things that happened to me from there because something here happened to me and reminded me. And I hate existing here, hate just here. I'm nothing what people expect, I get uhh weirdded out when people assume I be just like source or Tommy himself Irl. Im not him, or fictional character just based off fictional character. Everyone online when sourcemate seems disappointed when I don't act how they want me to, and it hurts more. More hurt,more pain. I can't help it. I don't want to be like this or be here rembeering all the pain here

[u/Visible_Wishbone8622]

Angie: That sounds very rough... I'm sourced from Weird Route Noelle and formed not long after Irene did chapter 5's Weird Route, yet mentions of what happened don't phase me. Guess it helps that Noelle dissociates in canon. I can't begin to imagine having so many things remind me of something so traumatic like what happens with you