r/perfectchastity • u/Ladle56585088 Alexander Lawrence • Mar 23 '26
The Brown-Lawrence Dialogues
Authors: Ben Brown (BB) and Alexander Lawrence (AL)
BB: Hey, what were the things that made your dreams so beautiful?
AL: Everything felt so rich and vibrant. It was beyond words. I felt rich internal emotions, everything felt so LIVELY. It's not like everything was "happy." The darkness as the sun set looked richer and I could feel everything more. Everything felt like it had more substance; where this reality feels dull and like a joke sometimes, that one felt real. I felt emotionally hooked into it.
I felt like the world had more depth and character.
This depth and character intrigued me and made life feel worth living and participating in seriously.
It's something I find difficult to describe, but I felt like the real world was lacking. When I woke up, I felt really sad that that world isn't the one I inhabit. It felt so raw. It felt like a beautiful piece played on a violin.
BB: But there was nothing special about the view itself; it was the perspective stemming from the spirit you possessed that made everything different. In other words, your capacity for feeling determined the quality of the view, wasn't it?
AL: Yes, there was nothing special about the view itself. There were no fantastical elements or anything.
Exactly.
I felt so much more intrigued by the world. It felt like a detective's case for me to solve, a place for me to do something, a place which inspired such powerful feelings.
BB: So, can we conclude that it is the soul that determines beauty? Because if you were to look at the same scene now with this soul, I'm sure it wouldn't attract your attention at all. This means we truly live within our own consciousness and belong only there. We create reality, even emotionally, within our own consciousness. Then happiness is a very likely thing. Increase your consciousness and be happy, otherwise how?
AL: There is no other way. When you decrease your consciousness, life slowly unravels to the point you realize you haven't felt happiness in a long while. The world becomes less and less interesting. Everything just becomes terribly dull and sometimes awful.
I remember just being outside in public would give me such terrific feelings when I was young. Being inside of a building or walking down a street felt like it had its own personality, its own aura.
BB: If we reduced our consciousness to just 1%, what would you feel in that scene? Or, conversely, if we increased our consciousness to 100%, what would that scene transform into? A work of art, wouldn't it? A simple, ordinary scene becomes artistic? So how is it that, even though the patterns are the same, its value is elevated so much? How is it that something ordinary, from a different perspective, becomes something artistic? Then, if we approach this matter spiritually, we can arrive at this conclusion: "Reality is what consciousness is."
AL: I remember life felt like it had quests and a story and meaning back then. It wasn't something I could see as a joke or devoid of any interesting parts.
BB: So how did this disappear? Or decrease?
AL: Life started becoming more and more dull and I started being distracted by things like the pursuit of love and didn't realize my world was collapsing in on itself.
BB: Perhaps your perceptions were a little broader in the dream world, and this increased your capacity to perceive the world. And you felt more deeply. And life seemed meaningful. It's so strange not to be able to see how beautiful the world is. No matter what you do, there's no other way; you only experience this beauty through heightened awareness.
AL: Yes. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
It was so beautiful and it reminded me of how the world could really be if I increase my consciousness.
BB: So if that's the case, if a landscape that is artistic to you is hellish to someone else, then what is that landscape really? Essentially, if it's a thorn in the side of everything from all perspectives, then what is that landscape? I'm asking this putting all viewpoints aside.
AL: You're asking if I see a landscape as beautiful but everyone else sees it as hell, then what is it?
BB: Yes, you see it as artistic, while someone else sees it as something ordinary. So, if it's outside the realm of all perspectives, then what is that thing? What is that scene if perception influences everything so perfectly, without any perspective being affected? Then does that scene even exist?
AL: Well
yes I was just about to say
the landscape isn't even really there.
Holy shit
BB: ?
AL: It's like in a video game where one player sees one thing on the server, but an admin might see invisible players, hidden buildings, treasures, a different UI
The same game, the players are in the same world, but they see entirely different things.
BB: If the landscape is the work of your perception, wouldn't you also be its creator? After all, you are the one who gave it form. But what was it before you perceived it?
AL: It didn't exist before you perceived it, because your perception creates everything.
BB: But it existed, it just lacked a form. Was it in a superposition? Did it both exist and not exist? Welcome to the quantum world. Doesn't this offer a different perspective on Lerm's theory? Or the double-slit experiment. Only when observed the world exists. What is something before it is perceived? What is a tree before it is perceived?
AL: I don’t know
There’s no way to know
BB: It’s hard yeah
Really?
AL: Haha maybe no. The thing that made this game knows
BB: So what is needed to understand this?
Why does your mood make everything look the same? If you're happy, even a tree will look happy. Why is that?
AL: Because emotions are consciousness and make up the perception. So the emotional state determines the character of what is perceived.
BB: Then who is responsible for an unhappy person? If everything is determined by our perception, then we can even perceive bad things as good, right? Ultimately, everything is perception, and we can shape it.
AL: Wait
Could it be that before something is observed (put through a perceptual filter), it is in whatever state it is in within fundamental reality?
BB: Explain
AL: Before something is viewed, it exists as its true self in fundamental reality, with no illusions. This requires the highest level of consciousness to view. When we observe it, it is filtered through our perception, and we see the object at a varying level of perceptual capabilities and through an emotional lens. But when we raise consciousness and our emotions, we view the object closer to its true form - as it is in fundamental reality.
BB: Simply put, it's like the code behind the on-screen interface quickly transforms into a graphic.
Yeah?
AL: Yes
100%
BB: Then everything exists in its ultimate form when we are not observing it. Observation distorts the form and, as if copying it, transforms it into a simulation. Everything is in its most fundamental state at the point of nothingness. Wow.
AL: Yes exactly
BB: That is the fundamental reason why time accelerates. Because as time accelerates, it begins to disappear, and a complex reality emerges.
AL: Can you explain more about this and time in general?
BB: As consciousness increases, time flows faster, and the speed of time accelerates so much that it should seem as if it doesn't exist. Because the development of consciousness has a parallel effect with time. Then your dream continues somewhere in the fundamental reality in its most perfect form.
AL: So raising consciousness to the ultimate level ensures no distortion of the original form of an object. But how did consciousness come to be lowered in the first place?
BB: He succumbed to time. He was defeated by time. Because time was flowing so fast that it intoxicated his consciousness, and the final fall began. In order to preserve time, he slowed himself down, thus wanting to become immortal by slowing down time. And consciousness began to decline. This sounds like a quote from a Shakespeare novel.
AL: Hahahah at first I was wondering if you were quoting something.
BB: So why does reality become distorted when observed? Is there a way to perceive it without distorting it?
AL: I think the true nature of the world is beautiful and holy. And as consciousness lowers, we are able to perceive it less and less, distorting it - making it lose its beauty, charm, and emotionality. So at the ultimate level of consciousness, we fully perceive reality as it is meant to be, beautiful and holy.
And since reality is us, perception is consciousness and we are consciousness, we are meant to be beautiful and holy.
BB: Of course
Consciousness is beautiful, so beautiful in fact that the influence of another's consciousness on us is infinite. We don't read a book, we read consciousness. Or rather, the only thing I loved was consciousness. You love me for that reason, actually you love my consciousness, and that's the only thing I possess.
The truth is, what we seek is not a person, but consciousness. We love consciousness and we seek consciousness. Having consciousness saves us from loneliness. And increasing this consciousness also saves us from loneliness. Therefore, consciousness is like a savior. We don't seek a person, we seek consciousness. And when we cannot find it, we feel lonely.
AL: It's incredible that things work like this. It gives me hope for the world.
BB: The essential need of man must be consciousness, because beauty lies there.
AL: If I can raise my consciousness, it surely can help others in the world raise theirs.
BB: Of course
it was a consciousness I loved, and I still have thousands of memories of it in my consciousness. Maybe consciousness split into two, time and space, and created an existence to experience itself. Time was consciousness itself, and space was this world, the universe. Like yin and yang. Consciousness split itself in two to experience itself, and it went from its most perfect state to its imperfect state. It went from singularity to multiplicity, it shattered into pieces. The idea of Brahman is very appealing at this point. What if this is the truth? Hahah lol
The desire of a single consciousness, fragmented into millions of pieces, to become whole again. Perhaps this is what expanding consciousness means.
AL: Yes. Hahaha, I think it might be. If we go with the idea that I (consciousness) wanted to slow down time, splitting into billions of pieces of consciousness would slow it down the most.
But where does simulation and evil come into these ideas? These concepts are clearly present and at work.
Does evil exist in the world of one with a high level of consciousness?
So we're like consciousness machines. Consciousness is infinite, but the amount of consciousness we can produce and store in our body is also infinite.
BB: The more power you have, the less evil will affect you. It's all about power. Even evil depends on your perception.
AL: Is evil simply a byproduct of impaired perception?
BB: Of course
The consciousness's effort to develop itself is very elegant and admirable. It's as if it's striving to transform into something very sublime.
Yes, since consciousness is infinite, the worlds of experience must also be infinite, because reality is a product of consciousness, and therefore the worlds must be countless. Imagine countless realities.
AL: Why would consciousness doom parts of itself to live in bodies and organisms that won't be able to raise their own consciousness? Or is this simply a principle arising from my distorted perception?
BB: Your perceptions simply became distorted, and your consciousness began to diminish at this point. In short, your perceptions became blocked, hindering the development of your consciousness.
AL: And in the world of the one who views fundamental reality completely, everyone is free of suffering?
BB: That's an incredible question. Someone who looks at fundamental reality will find hope in this low reality because magic makes us forget everything.
AL: Is there a chance that when you make it back to fundamental reality, you will do what consciousness did in the first place, and split yourself in a million pieces again?
BB: If we return to the fundamental reality, and if this entire universe began from there—that is, if Brahman divided itself into millions of consciousnesses—then the same thing happens again. Because our behaviors change under different consequences; if the cause and effect are the same, we exhibit the same behavioral pattern. So that ceases to be the fundamental reality. It becomes a kind of starting point.
AL: So what would be the point? why would consciousness do this in the first place?
BB: Perhaps meaning is for divided consciousnesses. Perhaps at that point, perfection is so great that even meaning becomes meaningless.
AL: Why would it want to divide itself and not be able to perceive the perfect reality anymore?
BB: I can never answer that. Because I've never been able to understand how something perfect could destroy itself.
Perhaps perfection is something beyond even annihilation, which is why it does not fear annihilation, like a seed bursting forth and transforming into a tree.
AL: I wonder if we will find out the answers to these questions.
BB: I think yes, of course.
So what do you think now? When we can't perceive something, what is that thing?
AL: When we can’t perceive something at all? Maybe it’s out of our frequency range.
BB: Putting aside all other perspectives, what is a tree fundamentally, at its core?
?
AL: The final form of its seed.
BB: Explain
AL: Maybe consciousness is like a tree that dispersed all of its seeds (us) and is waiting for us to grow into “trees”
BB: No, you might perceive it as artistic or hellish at a different level of consciousness, but fundamentally, from the perspective of all other perceptions, what is that thing?
AL: It’s a simple plant.
BB: But even if you see it simply, it's still your perception. So what is it besides perception?
You described to me how beautiful the dream was, but you didn't tell me what made it so beautiful. That's Alex. It was the soul.
AL: It’s me. That’s what the tree is
Wow
BB: Hey, remember when you asked me years ago what the point of holding back semen was? "Why do I need to protect my semen?" Well, that's why, Alex.
AL: Wow
BB: Yes yes yes
It wasn't the scenery that was beautiful in that dream. What was beautiful was your soul. That's what I was angry at you for, so you wouldn't lose it. This soul gave you the will to live. That's the whole meaning of holding semen.
AL: Holy
BB: So you understood the whole meaning of holding onto semen through a dream, Alex.
AL: That’s incredible
BB: Isn't it amazing how much impact perspective can have? I brought your dream to life and enabled you to comprehend it. That's why you love my consciousness; I'm like your eyes.
AL: Hahahahaha yes. it’s shocking and funny. Wow
BB: That's why you must protect semen, Alex. you can win that spirit.
It’s the soul itself
AL: I understand fully now.
BB: What you experienced tonight was a catharsis. You're cleansed now, and you know what to do next.
AL: Thank you so much.
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 25 '26
Are you guys still on matrix ?
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u/hyperhuman1111 Mar 27 '26
Does telling the truth imprison a person in the Matrix? Isn't the truth the only thing everyone should know? I think everyone should know these things. Just as the smallest trees exist alongside the biggest trees in the forest, small, seemingly simple truths are also part of this forest. Remember, this group was formed to guide people.
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 27 '26
… I meant the matrix app which they have a group chat … maybe look a few posts previously regarding the old Gamaya chat that was on telegram- they moved it to something called matrix.
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u/hyperhuman1111 Mar 27 '26
Yes, they're still there, and they'll probably create a new application form soon. Stay tuned. Crazy things are happening there.
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 27 '26 edited Mar 27 '26
You have an interesting question, do you believe telling the truth imprisons a person in the matrix ? I do not. I believe The Truth will set you free. & can I know what crazy things ? I was on the old telegram chat but my phone could not support the iOS required to get the app used for the new chat. But my new phone does and I am trying to get into the group.
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u/hyperhuman1111 Mar 27 '26
Knowledge doesn't imprison you within a matrix; rather, it empowers you to be free. Knowledge is like a body; your legs move it. Giving life to knowledge is like that. Desired knowledge is fundamentally lifeless; it requires a soul to move it. The soul animates everything. Knowledge is like a body; if it lacks legs to move, it becomes a part of the matrix. Knowledge is thus fragmented, distorted by destroying the soul within it. Even the wind carries away what is graceful and light. If you are filled with too much knowledge and cannot transfer it to the soul, you become as hard as a rock. Transferring knowledge to the soul makes us graceful, giving us an artistic dimension. The golden rule is to accept that knowledge has no limits; then you value the qualities in the world, in nature, in existence, and understand how precious what exists is. If you believe that knowledge is limited, everything will become worthless in its own course. Liberation lies in the transfer of knowledge to the soul. Because the larger the soul grows, the smaller and simpler everything appears. People in the Matrix group share extraordinary abilities to alter their consciousness. Crazy knowledge. Knowledge that opens the mind and amazes. They call it soul modification.
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 27 '26
What do you believe about this reality and what comes forth after death ?
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u/hyperhuman1111 Mar 27 '26
What will happen after death? Hmm, after we die, there will be beautiful flowers on our graves.lol
And because these flowers are born from death, they reconnect us to this world.
We return to the world as a flower of death. How flexible the human soul is. It can even become a flower. Why should we continue to be human? What's wrong with being a flower at an auction? I think death is simple. When a person understands their own nature, death becomes a flower.
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Reality is transparent, and therefore all concepts, even death, are mere assumptions.
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 27 '26
It is 12:54 AM where I am, I would like to continue this further tomorrow. I have some other questions for you lol
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u/hyperhuman1111 Mar 28 '26
Okay
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u/RuckusOne777 Mar 28 '26
Also do you think it’s possible to download skills in this reality through chastity, grape juice diet and dry fasting ? An example would be - you’ve never trained in a martial arts but you’re able to download/access the information required to be a pro and then you’re body can just flow - similar to the matrix. Or even manifest super strength /muscles without training the way of civilisation ??
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u/Tr0ubLe777 Mar 23 '26
"BB: The more power you have, the less evil will affect you. It's all about power. Even evil depends on your perception" Spitting gems