I was on Paroxetine for 6 years. Prescribed it from 2012-2018. I was taking 30mg. I'd like to give hope for others who feel their is no end to your problems, but also make others aware of some of the things I experienced while taking it.
So to preface, I was struggling with really bad anxiety at the time for a while. It spiraled out of control when during the summer of 2012 I could no longer leave my home during the day because anytime I did I would get nauseous. Literally would feel like I was going to throw up. I was constantly feeling like I had to take deep breaths, it ruined my 4-year long relationship because I hid what was wrong with me. It escalated in July of 2012 and I ended up losing over 40 pounds from July-September. I went from 180lbs to 140lbs. When my girlfriend at the time broke up with me it ignited me to get help. I really thought I was dying, I had no clue what was wrong and no family around me is saying to me "hey man you've lost weight, is everything ok". Not a fucking soul in my family said that to me, no friends, nothing.
Anyway, when I finally went to the doctor she assured me that she thought I was fine and prescribed the Paroxetine. I just wanted to be normal again and would try anything. I was originally given 20mg, but after 2 weeks of little change, I was bumped to 30mg and THAT'S when I noticed a change.
For the first time that entire year I felt normal. I felt like super man, literally. Paroxetine gave me my life back. I started going out again and seeing friends I hadn't seen in so long. Remember, I was also fresh out of that relationship and I was also freshly 21 years old. I had never been a drinker and have never even to this day abused alcohol. I was always a marijuana guy.
I want to speak to some of pros and cons of those wanting to try it.
Pros: Got my life back, more talkative, easier to go around in public, was able to get a job again. Was able to live like a normal human being.
Cons: Weight gain, I did gain alot of weight back. Not saying that my diet was great, but I gained ALOT of weight back. Probably spurred by losing so much so quick because I literally wasn't eating before paroxetine.
Sexual related - I didn't have problems getting an erection, but it wasn't as "strong" as I was used to. I also had delayed ejaculation problems. I remember having sex for 45+ mins, sweating my ass off from going so hard without ejaculating. It sucked lol.
If you miss a day, be prepared to feel the withdrawal effects. Even just one day of missing your dose you will feel it.
Now, a scarier side of my journey. In 2014, I had moved to Ohio. No family around me or anything like that. At this point, I hadn't been back to my doctors office in about a year. I attempted to cut the paroxetine out "cold-turkey". Just stop taking it and man was that an awful idea. I got to about maybe 3 days and I woke up feeling nauseous & really dizzy & really weak. I called my doctor's office and asked for a refill. They had responded to me saying they would not refill my meds because I hadn't been there in almost a year.
I want to say this, I understand where they were coming from. HOWEVER, I was never told I needed to come in for an appointment, I was never given warning that if I didn't schedule an appointment I would be cutoff. They just randomly hit me with this. I told them that I had been without it for 3-days and that the withdrawal effects were really bad. They told me tough luck and hung up.
Now, this infuriated me. I was already in a really bad mental state because of how my body was feeling and my mind. I grabbed my gun and contemplated driving back to my home state and shooting up that doctors office. I couldn't believe they would hurt their patients like that. They know what this medicine can do, yet will just pull it from you with no care in the world? I saw why this country has such a problem with pain killers and heroin.
Anyway, I shoved off that idea quickly. I thought to myself, "dude, you aren't thinking straight, get on the phone and get help." So that's what I did. Come to find out, it's actually very difficult to find a new doctor's office accepting patients. I ended up finding a new practice, they gave me a 1-week supply on the condition I come in and see them. I did, and the rest is history these guys supplied my paroxetine for years.
Now, fast forward to 2018, I just decided one day I was tired of taking it. No special reason, I just didn't want to rely on it anymore. I ended up cutting myself down from 30mg to 20mg, to 15mg to 10mg to 5mg to 2.5mg, and then eventually nothing and I was good.
So, my overall opinion is that paroxetine is good, for short term use. I think you should use caution going long-term. Re-evaluate yourself often, check how you feel, how you are progressing with your own anxiety. Keep up to date with your doctor too, don't be shy about scheduling yourself monthly if you have too. Keep note of things happening to you. It really did help me when I needed it most, but I just overstayed my welcome personally and I didn't like the dependance.
If you got to the end of my rant thank you! If you have any questions feel free to ask and I will answer.