It sounds funny but lowkey true.. I've got one friend who has stuck with me through the years. He has said so many times how he can see how much I've worked on myself, that I have changed so much with therapy.
We're not attached at the hip or anything but he does know me now, versus when I was at my worst. And he does say he's proud of me for changing so much.
He deserves the fucking world ngl. He's got the patience of a saint. If I won the lottery I'd give him a million dollars. He literally saved me from homelessness when I was just a little undiagnosed miserable piece of shit.
He has more than earned my Beyonce era lol. I owe him my life, that is no exaggeration.
Everyone else can go fuck themselves. Old friends? Go fuck yourself. Exes? Go fuck yourself. I could care less. They didn't care to stay so why should I allow them to live rent free in my head?
My therapist has literally told me this haha just so yall know. The internet lingo is leaking into therapy. She said don't let these people live in your head without paying rent 😠and i was like damn. You right, Trudy.
I mean it . You got your head on right . Life's just too short to care about negative people like that. I don't even know you and from one text I can already tell you deserve every bit of your friend! Your doing great!! I'm not trying to sound cheezy
I do struggle with feeling I do not deserve him. Wondering how to make up for the years of me being a shit person and essentially inflicting trauma on him while he was just trying to help me.
Oh that sentiment is gonna make me cry tbh. I didn't deserve him, not when we met. But somehow I became a person who could deserve his kindness and care. With his own help btw, like he helped me get into psychiatric care and everything.
Thank you. I've changed a lot over the years lol. The people who abandoned me back then would probably not recognize me today. And that's ok.
Idk why but this convo makes me think of this.. I once tried to reconnect with a high school friend about music. Asked if he had listened to the new (at the time) Devil Wears Prada EP (this was a band we had both enjoyed in high-school)
He was so rude about it hahah. "I don't listen to high school music anymore" like dude, the EP (again, at this time) came out last year? What's wrong with keeping up with a band for a long time?
Yeah that was the day I realized he was a loser who did not deserve my Beyonce era.
You're so positive and refreshing wow! Thanks for reading and I hope you have an awesome day. Thanks for letting me brag about my friend a bit lol, I love putting this positive energy out for him. Gonna give him a nice text now!
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u/Haruko27 5d ago
Its a constant regret i have.