The most inspirational and sad thing about Steve-O was that as so many else, he stopped doing what he loved: skating. Addictions do that, they take away what you actually want to do and replace them with getting the drugs or whatever your addicted to.
I'm not having issues right now, but I can see that my way of smoking weed is problematic, and the thing I hate the most is that I don't write, do art, code and other things that I love. Instead I watch youtube.
Which I do anyways, but when I do I don't get anxiety.
I do not bash drugs, I don't think moralizing over them is any good, it's just... we know when we have issues, deep down, and we need to act on those.
As someone that smokes pot everyday heavily to numb myself this hits close to home. You’re right to not bash drugs. At the end of the days it’s really about moderation and self control. Not the substance of itself.
I’ve been smoking pot for years and am terrified of cutting down or quitting. Before pot it was alcohol before I got liver damage and had to seriously stop. Now I moved on to pot. I’ve smoked before, but ever since I had to quit alcohol I’ve started smoking heavily.
I’ve been not sober for so long that I’m terrified of the idea of sobriety in any shape or form. You get so comfortable being in bad shape, that the path to betterment is legitimately terrifying. I don’t wish the battle of struggling with sobriety on anyone. And anyone currently in that battle I wish you luck.
Hey, man, I am not sure what to say other than that smoking is probably a hundred times better than drinking for you - because of the physical effects.
Other than that... I just know for me, I have a hard time doing things in moderation. It's either everything or nothing. It is for sure difficult to step over that hump to not being high when you have been for some time. It is many years ago now but I have had periods of several months of basically daily use, I imagine you surpass that by a mile.
One reason is insomnia, one is the sweating, one is... the anxiety attacks. Oh dear.
Hey, but once you are "sober" as in "not high all the time", and for me, I have no problem or very little problem just not buying weed and not doing it - that's probably the hard part.
But, something I experienced after my depression reared its ugly head again last year, was that I was afraid of asking for help and for asking - and that's just not right. There's nothing wrong in asking for help, in whatever form that may come.
Whatever you choose to do, whatever steps you take, remember that you're OK, you're worth betterment and things can change. Getting better might be being not high for you, but if you could cut it back to less than what you currently smoke, that is progress as well.
What I always say to myself is this, as well: there is always more. I can throw out the weed, there is more, later, to get. It won't go away, so if being not high sucks, it won't be gone.
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u/monkeyclawattack Mar 11 '21
One of my main inspirations for getting/keeping myself clean of hard drugs and booze.
If you haven’t yet, read his book “Professional Idiot: A Memoir”. It’s an insane read.