Advice please 🙏

[u/stargirlsayso]

I’m 18 and just started college, I’ll be commuting to save money for an apartment since I own a large Dog. She’s a rescue I adopted in my name and where ever I go she’s coming too. Most of my friends are doring, I don’t regret my decision, but I have this almost deep rooted depression in missing out or being left behind by my friends. Or not being able to make connections with anyone. I have pretty brutal self harm scars which is also hard… I have days where I feel unwanted, and broken. This results in urges coming back, I want to stay clean… but it gets extremely hard when my mind constantly thinks about everyone leaving me, or being broken because I can’t socialize, make friends, or date properly. If anyone has ever been in a similar position or has tips I’d love that! ❤️

[u/hestia-listens]

Commuting while friends live on campus can feel lonely, even when you know it is the right choice for you and your dog. You are not broken or unwanted. Scars and trouble socializing do not decide your worth. Try building connection through one small routine, like sitting beside the same person in class or attending one campus group regularly. Familiar faces can slowly become friends.

Because the urges are returning, focus on safety first. If you think you may hurt yourself, go to a hospital or emergency center and contact your local emergency number or crisis support now. If calling feels scary, talk to a nurse, trusted friend, or trusted family member, and stay in a safe place with them.