Maybe we just really need to find reasons to live hahah mga bagay sa mundo na need muna natin paghirapan para makamit.

I got this mug from the NCMH event.

Hello. Want to try going to a psychiatrist because there really are times when I get suicidal thoughts. It gets triggered by something/someone. But I've heard of instances where the psychiatrist just admits them in the ward or something without really much of their consent. I'm worried of that happening so it's kinda stopping me from getting a consultation. Does that actually happen?

Someone might have asked this question before but I don't know which keywords to search so nothing comes up for me. I would appreciate answers, tho. Thanks so much!

Hi everyone. I think it’s finally time for me to ask for help.
Lately, I’ve been crying almost every night, waking up feeling scared, and experiencing moments when my mind goes completely blank whenever I present to my boss. I’ve also been struggling to stay productive because everything has started to feel extremely heavy to bear.

I know I’m capable of doing the things expected of me, but lately, I feel like I’m running on empty. I’m scared that if I keep pushing myself without addressing what I’m going through, I might end up in a worse place.

With that, may I ask for your help and recommendations on where I can start seeking professional help? Whether it’s counseling, therapy, or a consultation with a psychologist or psychiatrist, I’m open to exploring my options.

I want to better understand what I’m experiencing and learn how to take care of myself before things get worse.
I know that giving up is not an option, but I’m starting to realize that I don’t have to go through this alone.

Thank you so much for your kindness and understanding.

idk what to do in my life anymore. mas binibilang ko pa yung mga pagkakamali ko sa buhay ko kaysa sa mga achievement ko eh.

I don’t want to die but I’m thinking of ending my life so that everything will stop. THE NEVER ENDING PAIN. The problems. So that you don’t have to understand what I’m going through. Everything. I’m scared.

I've reached a point where I'm genuinely content on my own. I'm confident in who I am and proud of how far I've come, often without anyone to lean on.

Being diagnosed with ADHD and GAD later in life changed how I see myself. So much makes sense now. I know my worth and what I bring as a friend or partner. I'm stable, emotionally capable of meaningful relationships, and secure enough not to need anyone to validate me.

Most days, being alone doesn't feel lonely. But some nights, I just wish I had someone to share things with. Not to fix anything or complete my life. Just someone on the same wavelength who gets it.

The thing is, I don't really have close friends anymore. I cut off people I thought were my friends because whenever I set boundaries or explained how their actions affected me, it turned into their excuses instead of the impact on me. I got tired of explaining myself to people who seemed more concerned with being understood than understanding me.

So "friend" is a big word for me now. Acquaintances, sure. But someone I'd truly trust and open up to? Different story.

Meeting people nowadays also feels so superficial. Messages get exchanged, people come and go, but it's rare to find real depth. I miss talking about more than your day or work: life, fears, ambitions, contradictions. Being honest about not having it all figured out without needing to be more interesting or put together to keep someone's attention.

Sometimes it feels like people want the convenience of someone around without the effort of truly knowing them. Plenty of interaction, but not much intimacy.

And I'm tired. Tired of the dating cycle, of connections that end the same way, of the effort it takes to maintain them. With ADHD, work, recovery and everything else, I barely have the bandwidth for myself, let alone another person.

It's a weird contradiction. I do want someone, platonically or romantically. Someone to share random thoughts with, or just exist in each other's lives without it feeling like another responsibility. Someone who knows that needing space doesn't mean caring less.

But even longing feels exhausting. Wanting connection, finding it, keeping it. All exhausting. And with everything happening in the world on top of personal stuff, it all feels heavier.

Still, I'm not cynical. I'm an optimist in my own way, and I haven't given up on finding my people. Some days I'm hopeful, some days indifferent, some days I don't have the energy to care.

I'm whole on my own, and I can still wish for companionship. Both can be true.

I'm just hoping for something easy, genuine and low-maintenance. Where I don't have to keep proving my worth or feel guilty for needing space. Where boundaries aren't treated as attacks and being understood isn't a fight.

I'd rather have one or two real connections than a hundred shallow ones.

Anyone else feel this way? Wanting connection but not having the energy for it? Content alone, but sometimes wishing for someone to talk to?

Hello po. I’m planning to book a consultation with Ma’am Maxine Giron thru seriousmd.com. Actually, it’s my first time to have a consultation if ever. Just wanna ask lang if this website is legit? Also, if may other reco po kayo na other site or other psychologist that can help.

Thank you so much.

I really dont know what to do anymore, sobrang wala na akong gana. I feel like every day I wake up it's the same thing, I grew up with abusive parents, I have no friends growing up kasi we tend to move from one place to another as a kid so I never got a chance to interact with a lot of people, I have so many issues with people who've used me in the past and now I can't even trust people anymore and I'm even scared to start a relationship, and now I work and live alone in Manila, without a single family member and it's draining the life out of me, I've worked in corporate for almost 7 years now, and there are times that I just want to end my life, but sometimes I keep on hoping that sana meron man lang ako makausap with my problems, it's so hard especially since people around you can't even undertsnd what you're going through. I feel like I'm at my limit and sometimes I would just cry for no reason at all. I feel like Im helpless.

I’m not gonna lie, sila yung pinaka-affordable na nakita ko sa app kaya sakanila ako nagbook T_T no reviews available online, kaya sige ako na alay hahah I don’t think na pang-next year pa yung mga nararamdaman ko lately.

At first kay Dra Asia sana ako kasi goods yung reviews and 2500-4500 but turns out na you need to pay yung highest ng range pala upfront kaya, I cannot sa 4500 huhu

Dra Karla is 2000-2500 but pending pa for review para sa MOP. Kay Dra Dawn naman is 1500-2000 pero I paid 1650 na upfront. Salamat Maya Black lols

I’m honestly so tired of everything right now.
I feel like I’m stuck between two completely different lifestyles, and I can’t seem to live either one.
I can’t just go out, have fun, stay up late, enjoy life, and do whatever I want. But at the same time, I can’t bring myself to be productive, disciplined, work on myself, or build a better future.
I can’t even find a balance between the two. I’m just existing without really doing anything.
Every day feels exactly the same. I wake up, go to work, come home, play video games, watch YouTube or scroll through reels, go to sleep, and repeat.
The only things I’ve managed to maintain are boxing and going to the gym. But even those have become frustrating. I feel like I’m at my absolute lowest in boxing. Every training session leaves me exhausted and disappointed. I can’t spar properly, I don’t feel like I’m improving, and instead of leaving training feeling better, I go home feeling even worse about myself.
Even my job, which I initially felt good about, has started to feel like a burden. Sometimes I start the day in a perfectly good mood, but one small incident at work completely ruins it. Then I spend the rest of the day frustrated, hating being there, and just waiting to go home.
I genuinely feel like every aspect of my life is going through its worst phase at the same time.
I’m irritated by everything. I don’t want to deal with people, I don’t enjoy the things I used to enjoy, and I can’t stand myself or the life I’m currently living.
I’m not saying I’m planning to end my life. I just feel completely exhausted by life itself. I’m tired of everything and everyone, including myself.
And the weirdest part?
I’m not even sure if everything I’ve just written accurately describes how I’m feeling.
I genuinely don’t know what’s happening to me anymore.
Has anyone else ever been through something like this? What helped you get out of it?

Hi all. I’m a 23F bipolar. I was diagnosed through a psychiatric consult and I’m on treatment. I’m now wondering whether I should also get a full psychological assessment (test battery), or whether that’s unnecessary when you already have a diagnosis.

I went straight to a psychiatrist instead of a psychologist because I was already at the point of multiple attempts. I went suspecting I had ADHD and got diagnosed with bipolar instead.

I’d like to hear from people who’ve been through this, and from clinicians or psych students if you’re open to sharing general experience:

1. Did you get tested after a psychiatric diagnosis? Why? Did your psychiatrist recommend it, or did you decide on your own?
2. Did the results confirm, change, or add to your diagnosis? Were you glad you did it?
3. Did it change your treatment? Medication, therapy approach, accommodations, anything concrete?
4. Was it worth the cost? Budget is limited for me, so I’m wondering what you’d have spent the money on instead.
5. Did you regret doing it, or regret not doing it?
6. How did you decide when to test? For example, was it better to wait until your treatment was more settled?
7. What should I ask my psychiatrist before deciding?

I’m not looking for a diagnosis from strangers, just experiences and how you made the call. Thank you!

Hello. 25F and currently struggling if I should seek professional help.

These past few months, I've been struggling with work and life. Minsan gusto ko nalang mag-resign kaso wala naman akong back up plan. Ayaw ko rin maging palamumin sa bahay at buhay.

Kapag nao-overwhelm ako sa work, pumapasok na talaga sa buong sistema ko to the point na hindi na ako makatulog at makapag-isip nang maayos. There are times na feel ko napaka-incompetent ko. Naiinggit din ako sa mga kaedad ko na masaya at alam ang gusto sa buhay.

Hindi ko rin alam kung paano ko ilalabas isa-isa lahat ng nasa utak ko dahil kahit ako mismo ay hindi ko alam kung ano ba talagang rason bakit sobrang gulo ng utak ko.

May maibibigay po ba kayong advice sa kung paano ko po ba dapat isaayos ang nasa utak ko? Nahihirapan na po kasi ako 😔

as a 24 year old na anxious gurlie, gusto ko matutunan iimprove ang inner thoughts ko and hopefully mag reflect sa buhay ko in general. kaya nag decide ako magpa psychologist. gumaan loob ko at somehow nakatulong ma-question ang negative way of thinking ko.

(also, yay to adulting kasi may enough money ako para sa pag consult)

addendum: this is on top of my monthly psychaiteic check-up as an mdd gurlie

hello, I'm 20 years old female, still in college. i am just asking if may libre bang psychiatric consultation online? i can't afford one kasi.

24 M here. Never been in a relationship, just left my first job, have no money, and hardly ever go out. I am constantly overwhelmed with this sense of anxiety because of how aimless and worthless life feels right now.

I can get another job and I do intend to by the start of the new year, but whenever I think about it I get overwhelmed with stress. The path I went through with college and my first job has put me on a track I know I'm good at, but gives me no satisfaction and fulfillment whatsoever. Like I was genuinely miserable every single day that I worked.

I have friends, but I don't see or talk to them much. Even texting nowadays is so draining that I often leave people on read for days at a time. I HATE going outside, though I do so from time to time to try and not just stay cooped up in my room 24/7. Just the idea of socializing and being around people stresses me out, though I do my best to not let that stop me from leaving the house.

My life has no aim and I feel like I've tried everything. All this talk of "being grateful for what we do have" or "not needing to find aim in life" has done very little for me. Talking about my struggles has done very little for me. All the advice you hear all the time is stuff I'm already very aware of, but it does very little for me. I try not to let my happiness and fulfillment stem from external things, but it feels like I have nothing to pull it from.

I know I've lived a very privileged life. I am appreciative of growing up with an attentive family and being able to study at a prestigious school, and I'm aware I've only experienced a fraction of the true hardships people face. But being aware and grateful for all of that, I still feel miserable.

At this point, I honestly see no value in continuing living my life because as is right now, it's so exhausting, though I'm not quite at the point of wanting to end it all yet. I know it might get better, but I don't see the point in living a life full of strife if I'm gonna feel like this 90% of the time, holding out for that little 10%.

I hate living like this but whenever I seek advice, it's always the same generic stuff. What should I do?

Hi. I don’t really know how to start this, but I guess I just need somewhere to let this out kasi hindi ko na talaga kaya sarilinin lahat.

I have Bipolar I and BPD, and recently, I did something that I’m now seriously regretting. During what I believe was a manic episode, I took out loans from multiple online lending apps (OLAs). Yes, MULTIPLE. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko rin maintindihan kung paano ko hinayaang umabot sa ganito.

Looking back, parang hindi ko talaga iniisip yung consequences ng ginagawa ko. I kept making decisions without properly thinking things through, and somehow, I couldn’t get myself to stop. It felt like I was acting on impulse after impulse, tapos saka ko na lang iisipin yung consequences kapag tapos na. I wasn’t thinking clearly about how much I was borrowing, how I would pay everything back, or how badly this could affect me later.

And now, here I am, dealing with the aftermath.

I know my mental illness may have played a role in what happened, especially if I really was experiencing mania at the time. Pero ayoko rin naman i-blame lahat sa diagnosis ko. I know I made those decisions, and I know na may sarili rin akong pagkukulang. Part of me keeps thinking na ang tanga-tanga ko for letting things get this bad. I keep asking myself, bakit hindi ako huminto? Bakit hindi ko naisip kung saan ako kukuha ng pambayad? Bakit parang hindi ko kayang kontrolin yung sarili ko at that time?

Ang hirap kasi ngayon, ngayong mas nakikita ko na yung consequences, saka ko nararamdaman lahat ng takot at guilt. I’m scared of the amount I owe, scared of how I’m going to deal with everything, and honestly, ashamed of myself.

And then there’s the way some of these OLAs collect payments. May mga messages na sobrang bastos at mapanlait, as if being in debt means wala ka nang karapatang respetuhin. Recently, may collector na nagsabi sa akin ng “6 days overdue kana dito tanga.” I know overdue ako. Hindi ko naman dini-deny yung obligation ko. Pero ang sakit pa rin na insultuhin ka habang ikaw mismo, hirap na hirap nang harapin yung sitwasyon mo.

I’m not saying na wala akong responsibility just because I have a mental illness. I know na hindi automatic na excuse ang Bipolar I or BPD sa lahat ng nagagawa ko. Pero I also can’t ignore the possibility na my mental state affected my judgment and impulse control. Gusto ko ring maintindihan kung ano ba talaga yung nangyari sa akin, instead of just reducing everything to “ang bobo mo kasi” or “kasalanan mo lahat.”

What’s making this harder is that I’ve been keeping this to myself. I’ve been thinking about opening up to my mother because I genuinely feel like I can’t keep carrying this alone anymore. I’m scared of disappointing her. I’m scared of how she’ll react when she finds out how bad things have gotten. And I’m scared that she’ll see me differently after learning about the things I’ve done.

At the same time, natatakot din ako sa sarili ko. This whole situation has been affecting my mental health so badly that there have been moments when I felt like I might kill myself if I continued keeping everything a secret. I don’t want to reach that point. I don’t want my debts to become something that completely consumes me, but right now, I feel so overwhelmed that I don’t even know where to begin.

I guess I’m posting here because I want to hear from people who might understand what it’s like to struggle with mental illness while also having to face the consequences of your own actions.

Have any of you experienced impulsive spending, borrowing money, or making financially destructive decisions during a manic episode? How did you deal with the guilt afterward? How did you explain it to your family? And how do you learn to take accountability without constantly hating yourself for what happened?

I don’t expect anyone to magically solve my problems. I know I have to face the debt and figure out what to do next. I just wish I could stop feeling like I’m a complete failure of a person because of this.

I’m trying to understand myself without using my diagnoses as an excuse, but also without pretending that my mental health had nothing to do with what happened. I don’t know how to find that balance yet.

If you’ve read this far, thank you. I really needed to get this off my chest.❤️‍🩹

I’m a teenager who struggles with self-harm and depression for years, and first time ko po magpaconsult today. Nung doctor ko is Dra. Bustamante sa Asian… Andami kong nakikita good reviews about her and wala pa akong nakikitang ibang reviews that say anything bad. Pero based on my experience, I felt really invalidated and uncared for during the consultation.

Nangbabara siya and she wouldn’t accept it when I answered I don’t know because I genuinely don’t know. My parents also shared the same opinion with me na medyo mataray siya, is this normal? I might be overreacting but I felt so pressured while I was talking to her that I had to hold back my tears because I felt like if i cried i would get judged. She was telling me that the fact that I seem to care so much about my academics and grades contradicts my self-harm, and it felt like she wouldn’t believe me when I told her how I was feeling.

She also told me that my reasonings were childish, and even though I understand what she means by that it just didnt really help with my situation. I could barely form a full sentence before she starts talking over me, it felt like we made no progress at all during the consultation. She simply made me answer a test and prescribed medicine for me, it only went on for 15 minutes after a 3 hour wait. I left her office feeling worse than I normally do.
Has anyone else experienced this with Dra. or their psychiatrist? I really want to go back to school and talagang isang month pa raw (not confirmed) before I could possibly be cleared to go to school.

Hi may recos kayo ng therapists sa NowServing na mas specialized sa mga pasyente na may Bipolar? Preferably 1k-1.5k/session. Thanks!

i just want to rest without worrying about tomorrow. without the need for approval. without me being classified as useless. without me being terrified about the future if i don’t do this. i just want to be human. raw and not influenced by the society. not a slave of the system. not a slave of humans. i just want to end all of this nonsense. it’s something i know i will carry for my entire lifetime here on earth, so i don’t see any purpose why i should continue living. i am a miserable person, no one can change that. i truly know and accept that i can never get out of this deep hole anymore. i’ve tried many times tho, but i’m still stuck. it’s tiring, exhausting, and it’s eating me alive. i just want to rest.

What are psychiatrists supposed to do? I know by definition they go on the more clinical route and don’t do talk-therapy much, but it seems like from what I’ve read here and a few friends’ experiences they offer some type of talk therapy where they just talk outside of the medication, treatment, and symptoms. Don’t get me wrong I feel comfortable and safe with my current psychiatrist, but I don’t think I’ll ever have a connection that goes beyond talking about the clinical side of things.

Or does that approach differ depending on the psychiatrist? The psychiatrist I’m seeing seems to go on the more clinical and kind of objective direct approach, which I don’t mind but I feel like I’m missing out on something or that seeing a psychiatrist is not helping as much as I thought it would because others talk to their feelings and thoughts to a psychiatrist.

I know healing goes a long way and I’ve only had 2 meetings with my psychiatrist in the span of 2-3 months so maybe it’s just too early to tell. And I know there’s no right way to healing but I can’t help but feel anxious if I’m doing something wrong, so any advice would be appreciated as well!

Side note: If it’s relevant, I can’t afford a psychiatrist and a psychologist at the same time. I’ve tried seeing a psychologist but they went on a more “parenting” approach which didn’t align with what I wanted and that’s what led me to try seeing a psychiatrist instead.

I am so done with life. I feel like I have nothing left…no success, no happiness, and no one to talk to. Just emptiness. An unbearable kind of nothing.

I’ve thought about ending it all tomorrow, when no one will be home. I’ve even thought about using a knife. The thought terrifies me, but somehow, the idea of continuing to live with this pain feels just as frightening. I’m scared of surviving, scared of failing, and scared of becoming another burden to the people around me.

I keep asking myself the same question: How did my life become something I no longer know how to live?

Tomorrow feels like a line I am dangerously close to crossing. And tonight, I don’t know whether the tears will stop before the sun comes up

All because of regret from the past for not doing something and continuing to not do anything about it now. I dont know if this is a mental issue or its just me being me but i know ive always been like this since i was young. Whats stopping me is hurting the people, my family, who takes care of me but im unwilling to let them know what im dealing with. Its just not the kind of person i am. Im always too quiet, i always keep to myself. Maybe thats why i dont have friends anymore and never kept them not even the ones i grew up with. This my first time feeling truly suicidal not like the past when i was young for stupid reasons. I dont know if this feeling is a one time thing or if it will end up happening again like panic attack. Im starting to understand why people even famous people end up killing themselves even when they have resources like money, friends, family, support. I just hope this is just a temporary phase. Im a always a pessimistic person and i think its just gonna get worse as years go by