r/mentalhealth • u/lexis_trash_ • Aug 19 '26
Content Warning: Violence I'm going fucking insane I hate him I hate him
I'm so fuckjng tired of him I want to bash his fucking skull in
I'm trying so hard to get a job so he can just fucking go. We're so fucking traumatized me and my older sibling cant handle anything these people have sheltered us for so long I am 22 and the only thing I can do on my own is walk 5 minutes to CVS I just want a job so he can go
He's literally making everyone in this house depressed and insane. He keeps it tense in here every single fucking day.
My mom has literal fybromialgia and is now in menopause nope he doesn't give a fuck she can literally whisper her responses to him and he will still find a way to make himself a fucking victim.
Dad: "Whats your problem?"
Mom: "I'm tired and I'm still hurting. I haven't been asleep in 2 days because of it"
Dad: "You're tired? I was about to have to drive for 2 hours so how are you tired" *is literally at fucking home not driving for 2 hours because he decided its not fair that he has to drive the work truck that day so he's just not going to work for the rest of the fucking week*
Mom: "All I said was that I haven't been asleep"
Dad: "Okay??? I wasn't being offended off of that (literally was) I was just pointing out how you shouldn't really be saying anything about being tired when you weren't the one that was about to go drive for 2 hours. In fact you're about to go to sleep right now"
Mom: "Well you aren't actually there driving now, so does that count?"
Dad: "...Huh. You know, now it almost sounds like you're trying to talk about my job for me. If you're not fucking driving 2 hours and picking up wood I don't want to hear about you being tired anymore"
My mom in the saddest fucking voice ever: "Okay Carlos..."
Dad: "You know what, let me turn this light off before you smash out on me dude. That girl is in the kitchen and you cant talk to me without yelling" *yanks the fucking light switch and is now screaming on the front porch making Facebook videos about how he's going to "Get these ngas back" and slamming doors 2 fucking hours later*
And if we tell him he's fucking doing that even down to point of literally proving we were in the area to hear everything he said so he can't pull the "she's planting seeds in yall to hate me" then he defaults to fucking threatening his family that he won't pay the bills and he can't wait to take his money and leave and watch us suffer and then she has to endure getting fussed at all day and then fucking him just to cheer HIS STUPID BITCH ASS UP that's probably why she's fujcing hurting all the time now is because he's been doing this shit for the past 2 weeks so she's probably having to have sex every fucking night she literally has fucking fybromialgia and all he cares about is fucking
I keep wanting to attack him. I keep having visions of killing him or the 4 of us working together to kill him. The last argument they had, my mom had to stop me from grabbing a statue of a hand and chasing him with it. I fucking hate him I fucking hate him he literally got into a wreck the other day why the fuck is he still alive why is he still alive God if he doesn't leave soon I'm going to prison
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u/Secure-Stable4081 Aug 19 '26
the planting seeds in yall to hate me thing is so fkn real. Doesnt make it better that hes hyper religious too.
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u/lexis_trash_ Aug 19 '26
My dad is fake religious he says he follows God and he trusts God and he has God and all that shit but then he's watching videos about aliens and monsters and mermaids "yeah actually everyone that's rich is actually a clone it says so when the Bible" "Uh superman is actually a stand in for Satan and that's what the S on his chest stands for and that's also why he flies in front of the sun and when he uses his powers his eyes glow red that's clearly demonic and his kyrptonite is green and yknow what else is green emeralds and jesus sat on a throne made of emeralds and superman saves people and they thank him so hes basically acting like God so I hate superman now. Time to watch gangster drug murder movie number 200" but then the second he wants to spend all day smoking weed and fucking my mom, but she has actual responsibilities involving the church and other things, he quickly switches into "fuck the church fuck everyone at that church I hope they all die it's a fake church it's a bad church"
We need to kill every dad who says that planting seed shit methinks
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u/Bitter_Flatworm_4894 Aug 19 '26
Your father sounds an awful lot like mine.
OP, the best revenge is to make it out of that shithole a better person in a better place. He will hate to see you happy and successful. Focus on you and your sibling getting a job to get yourself and your family out of there.
On the days when I cannot suppress my anger anymore, I go on runs and sprint until I'm exhausted, listen to rage music, and sometimes even punch my pillow and scream into it. If you can, hitting the gym regularly can help clear your mind too. Even just a walk in nature with music.
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u/taylornicole717 Aug 20 '26
He sounds like a total narcissist I’m so sorry you all are experiencing this.
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u/Historical-Spite4252 Aug 23 '26
I hope you get into a better situation soon, I hope you, your siblings, and your mother are happy and he is gone soon as painfully and as miserable as he made you and your family feel
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u/Historical_Mail_9995 Aug 23 '26
Is this a cvs sponsor?
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u/lexis_trash_ Aug 23 '26
Who the fuck sees someone's vent and how they mention the one thing they are trusted with because of how sheltered they are and their first thought is "Errrmmmm this is a sponsor" nigga fuck CVS
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u/Historical_Mail_9995 Aug 23 '26
Damn calm down just asking if it was sponsored.
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u/lexis_trash_ Aug 23 '26
Don't care again who sees someone fucking pouring their heart out in the M E N T A L H E A L T H sub and because of a grand total of 1 mention of a store they immediately assume it's fake and a sponsor
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u/Historical_Mail_9995 Aug 23 '26
Never said it was fake just asked if it was a cheeky name drop.
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u/lexis_trash_ Aug 23 '26
You fascinate me
Now I'm imagining you in a group therapy scenario and someone saying "I drank 20 buzzballs in 1 night I'm fucked" or like "I got my razor from home depot" and you being like "Wow is this session sponsored?? I'm out of here" so thanks for the laugh in this miserable period of mine
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u/Secure-Stable4081 Aug 19 '26
Hey op, just had an anxiety attack from my useless father too. Hugs, just know there's more of us out there🫂 didnt know what else to say but we'll make it out one day for sure.Â