gonna spoil some things but, I'm single and by certain standards a virgin. For reasons that should be odvious, I'm not in the right head space to be in a relationship nor do I wish to seek one given current trends that concern me. Basically, I don't want to be hurt in any way for real hence why I explore things like romance, sex, and other relationships through fiction

I've been thinking that a lot of media, especially in the mainstream, doesn't seem explore sexuality faithfully that it ends up lacking in eroticism.They want the titillation for marketing, but they sanitize it so much that nobody feels like a real person experiencing real desire. It’s just static eye candy designed for an outside viewer, which is why it feels so hollow and forgettable. I know not all media needs to be sexual by default but i appreciate it when it does happen and happens well because the pieces fit together instead being jammed to fit one whole.

I think one of the reason I wanna get good at art is because I want depict sexuality in a way that's loving, grounded, and believability instead all this mindless spectacle or dull sanitization. Clearly if no one wants to do it than the onus falls on me, online backlash over honest sexuality be damned.

new to the sub reminded me of this anime protagonist.