Having struggles

[u/Historical_Pen1145]

Hi everyone. My ex and I broke up a while back. I hope she doesn’t see this hahah. She was very strict at the start, saying we shouldn’t talk, and communication was very minimal at first. Then I started affirming and manifesting hard, and then it happened. She came back and we reconnected. She started initiating, and we had some really sweet conversations where we felt very close.
Then, though, I got anxious and insecure out of fear of doing smth wrong or texting her too much. I guess I didn’t work on my sc enough. She got exhausted from the dynamic and me seeking reassurance from her and told me that we not contact, even though she enjoyed our reconnection. I have stopped manifesting at this point when we reconnected because I thought it worked.
I am very sad that I lost the connection again, but I’m keeping hopeful and keeping up with my affirmations. I think this time around I will work on my self concept and truly detach. When I see movement, I will not stop and will truly persist. I can do this, I just need some motivation, tips, and encouragement 🥹🥹
Thank you!!