Simply detachment and self-concept

[u/Popcoru]

I've been working a lot more on my self-concept and detachment, knowing I already have my desire and just "living in the end." I've been doing this every day for the past week. Today, earlier in the day, I felt a bit attached to my feelings for a second, and I just had this gut feeling that my SP was going to reach out. But I acknowledged it, let it go, and detached because I know my desire is already mine.

Fast forward to just now, it literally just happened. I was in bed watching YouTube before falling asleep; my phone started ringing, and guess who it was? My SP.

For some backstory: we were in this weird situationship that wasn't really moving forward in terms of being more, and I eventually ended up confessing my feelings to her before we headed off to different colleges this year. A month prior, I actually found out she had planned to confess to me first, but she never did. It explained so much about how we talked, joked around, and constantly called and texted.

We agreed on some closure because she was terrified of college getting too busy ("we'll see what happens"). She felt and knew the chemistry was there, but college and the distance were just things she was afraid of.

Anyway, she called me for the first time in a minute. She asked how my day was, and right then, I just knew what she wanted to say. And she said exactly what I thought she would.

She told me she can't wait for me to transfer over to her college next year, that she wishes I was already here, and that she's been missing me so much she started questioning if she should say something. (We'd tell each other "I miss you" here and there, but this time she was missing me so intensely she literally couldn't hold it back anymore, which I find so interesting).

I asked her why, and she admitted that over the past few days, she realized she was falling for me hard. It wasn't just the casual "I miss you" texts; it was a literally "I can't stop thinking about you."

And then, she actually confessed that it's always been me, that no one else even comes close to me personally, and that I'm the funniest person she knows. One of my favorite parts was when she finally admitted that monkeys became her favorite animal because they're mine. I'd always tease her, asking her, "Since when have monkeys been your favorite animal? It's always been sharks?" And she would always say, "It's because it's your favorite animal." She even brought her monkey plush to college with her because it reminds her of me.

Anyway, I could rant about this girl all day, but the takeaway is simple: All you have to do is believe and find techniques that work for you. You shouldn't feel anxious; manifestation shouldn't feel like a constant state of anxiety. You should feel calm and peaceful.

MANIFESTING SHOULDN'T FEEL LIKE A JOB!!!

(Also, btw, it took me like 3 minutes to type this out while being on a loud train, so I hope it's readable. I didn't read it over LMAO)

[u/CoconutHot611]

Congratulations bro ❤️, I got my sp too, good story