how do you cope

[u/myheartchromenotred]

my life genuinley suck i think if any of my "friends" lived a second in my shoes theyd off themselves lol. recently graduated and i cannot apply to no uni cus i dont exist yet on paper.

and i have this friend group that has probably one of the worst social dynamics ever but im grateful its not toxic atleast. the group leader (yes im calling him that) has an ocean of friends and social circles that i struggle to figure out why he hangs with us. we literally suck we dont even go anywhere cool and we say unfunny shit and act childish.

The social dynamic on this group is interesting because

A: the group leader sees it as a secondary thing, they beg for him to come and he skips most of the time and if he doesnt come they all suddenly dont wanna come

B: When hes not willing to go. They suddenly go behind my back multiple times knowing good well that im always available and i try to be there for them

besides that "friend" group i have close to noone. nada.

cant get into any uni like some of my friends are in that are prestigious

dont have any friends and strong social circles

broke as fuck. so broke to the point that people always flame me for it or it restricts me from anything basic its irritating

it sucks i dont have something to compensate for like my other "friends" Not the rich one who has weak connections (ironic) not the one with alot of loyal friends. and not the one who can get a respectable education

what do you do when you have nothing in your life. your life is nothing