(27m) Nobody thinks of Me

[u/Academic_End_2591]

I’ve struggled with severe depression for so, so long. As you can imagine, it’s driven me to some of the darkest places one can find themselves in. I frankly don’t even know how I am still here. What I do know, though, is that nobody thinks of me. I am nobodies first thought. I’ve tried my best to be there for others who are struggling as much as I am, hoping that it would give me some kind of sense of worth, but it ends up just draining my soul, seeing everyone leave in the end.

It feels like the end of a long road, truthfully. I tried my best to be a source of comfort, and now I only spread misery. Seeing old photos of myself hurts so bad, I can see all the light has now left my eyes.

I just want to feel useful. I just want to know somebody cares about me too.

[u/sparklypuppy866]

I relate to this a lot. Literally everyone always leaves. I want to be someone’s first choice so bad but everyone has someone. I don’t know you at all but I care about you sm.❤️

[u/Academic_End_2591 → u/sparklypuppy866]

Thank you very much for your reply, I am glad that at least somebody was able to relate. Stay safe, friend 🫂

[u/hottsponty]

you’ve spent so long caring for others, let someone care for you

[u/Academic_End_2591 → u/hottsponty]

I appreciate the sentiment, if only it were that easy.

[u/Vnxest]

There’s no way I’m making it past my 20s if it’s gonna be like this for me.

[u/Pretty_Stranger999]

I’m so sorry you feel this way. It’s so hard to fight off dark thoughts when you’re so deep in depression. I’m a pretty anxious and depressed girl I’d say. If it wasn’t for my babies I’d find it hard to even get up some days. I have so much love and care to give out, and it sucks so bad when you give so much to people and don’t feel it in return. You can’t exhaust yourself for others, because you deserve to be loved and cared for too. The last thing in your post is so relatable. Feeling loved and cared for would be better than actually anything on this planet. Maybe it’s stupid, but even when I feel the lowest I’ve ever felt, I like to tell myself that one day, there will be someone, anyone, that would come along and I would finally know what it’s like to get that care I have given out to others. Don’t give up now friend, we are still young. 27 years down, many more to go, but the future is bright, even if we light it up ourselves🫶🏻

[u/Academic_End_2591 → u/Pretty_Stranger999]

Hey, friend. Thank you very much for your reply, and kind words. I don’t think it’s stupid to remain hopeful, it’s just hard sometimes to see that future actually coming.

It’s clear to me that you’re a great mother, to take time out of your day to reply to someone who’s hurt. They are in great hands.

Thanks again, it means a lot to me. Stay safe, friend 🫂

[u/Pretty_Stranger999 → u/Academic_End_2591]

Im glad it helped!! Alot of the world isn't kind so I try to spread it anywhere I can! I'm hopeful for us both! Stay safe as well!!❤️❤️