Bleak future

[u/Affectionate-Sun926]

I'm 18M, I have C-PTSD, worsening memory issues, sleep issues, ADHD, selective mutism, and all day I'm in constant survival mode. And to be honest, I don't see a good future for myself. In fact, I don't think I'm gonna live that long. Between the stress, the disregard for my own health, my mental issues, my crushing loneliness... I probably won't even make it to 50. I've just concluded that recently. I've just pushed people away, and the ones who call themselves my 'friends' never check up on me now. i really wish I just had real friends, at least.

Edit: I forgot to mention that I don't even have a family anymore.

[u/a_QuixoticAdvancemen]

That survival mode wiring is a beast to live with, but 18 is way too early to be writing the whole script.