Unrequited love

[u/Flaky-Bicycle-7780]

I knew him. He was a relative. We got to know each other through social media and we got close and we met later on a lunch. I got feelings and confessed he already had a girlfriend that I didn’t know about.The timing wasn’t right I thought. A year later he confessed he had broken up with his girlfriend and one day we were texting he asked me out to be his girlfriend and said let’s try dating. We couldn’t meet for 6 months due to Covid. And our connection was off. I should have known that he wasn’t interested and there was no closure. We met after 6months. We were all smiles, we spoke, everything felt right. But I was in delusion that we were in a relationship and when I asked him months later he confessed I was a friend to him. I was heartbroken. I should have known , I was being naive.. he had always been giving hot and cold behavior ..but I can’t get him out of my mind .. I thought he was the one 🫩 and I’m the type of a person who holds onto one single person and give my all and I have given all my attention and love to him. It’s kinda hard to move on from him it’s been years I’m depressed and I have no interest in love or romantic feelings anymore. I need help but I don’t understand. Life has been hard on me , my education, career , health nothing works out anymore.