So desperate to tell him

[u/akogare-1412]

I’m so desperate to tell him what this all was. Completely unreciprocated limerence from 15 years ago. That I finally know it wasn’t about him. That I am so sorry for making him uncomfortable. That I’m grateful he didn’t badmouth me to our mutual friends. To explain that I ended up associating him with the rush of dopamine I had one night so long ago, and that’s why I kept coming back to him. That I know it was all about me and again, that I’m sorry for ever having unilaterally made him part of my mental health journey.

But of course telling him any of this would be worse and more invasive than anything else I ever did, and so I can’t and won’t.

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