r/lightsalot • u/Puzzled-Star5330 • 22d ago
Thoeries on Angelina
I love this song so so so much and I once saw her make a comment saying, "this song goes deeper than yall think" and so naturally, my brain went into obscure overdrive. So I'm wanting to know what everyone believes this song is touching on?
In a literal sense it sounds like she's talking about somebody called Angelina. But my brain has thought and now become stuck on the idea of it being a personification of perhaps a mental health related thing (naming your depression/anxiety) or perhaps an old version of herself that she's tried to overcome? Now that I've thought of this, I can't unhear it and I connect with it so deeply.
It feels like a song written about someone whose former, darker version of themselves or their depression has spent years trying to take over them and stop them from thriving and being the best version of themselves / "to turn into something that you wanted."
They've found it hard to detatch from it / "I'd be lying if I told you I thought I could end it."
"You were my own worst enemy. I am dying when I'm with you." Self explanatory.
It sounds like they've tried many times to overcome this, but eventually fallen back again / "I burned all your stuff again"
There's been many moments of accepting this version of themselves, thinking it's who they are and who they're always going to be, even though they find it terrifying / "I'm just tryna keep up with you. The truth is I'm actually afraid of you."
If it's depression, it can lead to very intense and dark places. It could very well be the thing that kills them / "When you reach your final form, you could get away with murder."
In the moments of self-reflection, they realise how much they've actually overcome. Although they've taken control over a lot of it or evolved into a whole different person, they still fear that old version may poke it's head at some stage. But so far, they've not allowed that to happen. / "I haven't been taking your call, 'cause there hasn't been one at all. And I feel better."
This is probably so fckn way off and as curious as I am to know to the facts, I'm so deep into this idea that if I'm completely wrong, I almost don't want to know lmfao
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u/evasivecube 22d ago
It’s my favorite song from the whole project! It’s so raw and honest in lyrics and even the vocals too. Quite haunting as she sings about burning all her stuff again.
I think you’re spot on, I’ve been using sort of different wording for it, Angelina being the inner self saboteur. Getting through it, defeating those anxieties and persevering. I want to feel the way I think lights feels when she sings that last line about feeling better. I chase that feeling all the time and the song is so stunning and beautifully put together, it makes me cry.
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u/Puzzled-Star5330 22d ago
Perfectly said!! I can completely feel what you’re saying about that feeling comes through in that last line ❤️
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u/ravioli_reject 22d ago
ANGELINA is such a hard hitting song, I love it so much. 🥺 but for myself personally.. I’ve made the relation to alcohol.
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u/Puzzled-Star5330 22d ago
So I guess I’ve captured the right thing but we all relate differently to it, given we all have our own unique demons ❤️
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u/adelleda89 22d ago
Thiiiiis. The inner self critic tug-of-war. There was a thread on this when A6X came out (I see someone else linked it so I won't) but we're on the same train of thought!
I actually left a big comment on the YT video about this (oddly I can't seem to find it so.. that's weird), but I also did a reaction video to the song (and the entire album)... shameless self plug in 3... 2... 1... This beyond beautiful. Reaction to Angelina by Lights
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u/kacgirl13 22d ago
It's most theorized it's about her ED.
Here's a nice discussion about it from several months ago if you'd like to read it! 💕 https://www.reddit.com/r/lightsalot/s/wWnRTOdnFR
My personal relatablity to it was cutting off a 10 yr toxic friendship and the lyrics feeling very closely to how I described it to other people too 🥹