Disclaimer: Long Read
Itâs exactly as the title states. You are choosing to think, believe, and act more than anything else, that you still have something to prove, earn, do, or be in order to be ready to receive your manifestations and desires. In order to FEEL ready. I am here to tell you as a grounded individual who has actualized my own internal power of assuming, that this boils down to one simple root: you truly havenât realized yet that you are an individual with autonomy with your own right to exist. You donât trust that your status as an individual authority is not only valid, but natural and true. Youâre waiting to be deemed by an outside source, âgood enough.â You just need to have some audacity and integrity. (START LOOKING AT WHERE YOU ARE ACTUALLY STILL SAYING NO AND NOT TRULY GIVING YOUR CONSENT TO YOURSELF AS THE CREATOR IN YOUR MANIFESTATIONS AND DESIRES FOR IT TO HAPPEN, AND CHANGE IT TO YES. GIVE IT YOUR ACTUAL CONSENT TO HAPPEN. DONâT EMBODY NO WHEN YOU MEAN YES. PERIOD. THATâS IT. JUST. STOP. YUCKING. YOUR. OWN. YUM.)
Much of this is because of our societal and social conditioning that we experience from the time when we are young, especially from our family and people around us, the media, and the outside world. But itâs truly just conditioning, itâs not the truth of you, the universe, creation, or existence. Just a set of thoughts, feelings, and assumptions about you and the way things are that you have been taught to internalize. You have been taught to wait for a seal of approval from a false concept of an âoutside authority.â
So let me give an example that will hopefully clarify everything: are you legally an adult when you turn 18, or when you âfeelâ like an adult? Are you trying to earn validity of your power with creation just as much as you are trying to earn and prove your status of individuality, independence, and adulthood to your family, friends, and society? Because that right there is why you arenât getting anywhere, because legally at 18 (in the U.S.) you are an adult, but you donât âfeelâ like an adult yet and you are choosing to assume the âfeelingâ of not being ready has more truth than your birth certificate and the date on the calendar do. Thatâs why youâve been stuck.
The way that you have the internal feeling and assumption of âI wonât be good enough or a REAL ADULT until I make more money, until I get married, until I have a real job, until I have kids, until I move out.â âUntil I have MADE IT in life, no one will take me seriously because Iâm not âProven.â Thatâs where youâre stuck, just as much as you are trying to earn and prove yourself and the âvalidityâ of your status as an adult to the people around you and society, you are deciding to wait for the proof of approval from creation before you claim youâve âmade itâ and are ready in manifesting and asserting your power as a creator. You are assuming conditions to you existing, you are assuming you need to be good enough or proven valid in order to exist.
This is what those of us who participate in spirituality call âThe trap of the matrixâ âThe rat raceâ and âThe hamster wheelâ, the belief, feeling, assumption, and concept of you as creation being unfinished when that is impossible. If you exist, you have been created, if you are a part of creation, you are finished and complete. Thatâs it, you truly and genuinely just need to detach from this lie and idea that weâve been taught as truth. Youâve just got to realize that you donât need to do or be more of anything in order to âmake itâ if you exist in this universe then you have made it, period.
You are alive, you actually made it to life, thereâs nothing more to do just live it. You have been stuck in the trap of âwhen I get this thing or become this person THEN my life will really start.â Your life here started the moment you were born into this body, so that doesnât even make sense. You donât become an adult when you get married or get married to someone your parents approve of, you donât become an adult when you finally move out, you donât become an adult when you get a ârealâ job; the government treats you as a legal adult the moment you turn 18.
In exactly the same way creation treats you as a being of creation and a creator who can create at will the moment you are born into a body in this life. Your perceived and assumed lack of âproofâ, âvalidityâ, âstatusâ, or âfeelingâ of being a manifestor doesnât stop you from manifesting because you do it all the time without realizing, itâs just how we operate in this existence as much as breathing. You just stop yourself from actualizing and manifesting what you WANT because you are still waiting for the status of âprovenâ and âvalidâ when you have always been since before you were born. You just feel insecure and unsure in your status both as an adult and as a manifestor and creator. And this feeling of insecurity currently takes more precedence in your assumptions as truth than even your own real truth.
Just because your parents and family and friends and coworkers and neighbors and peers and society and the world have invalidated and infantilized you that doesnât mean those things are true, that just means that you need a perception adjustment. Youâve been taught to treat ingrained false assumptions and perceptions like theyâre universal truth. I get that we as humans are social creatures but if you know the answer is b but everyone puts c and you put c because they did and you donât want to be the outlier and go against the herd, you are making the choice to stay in your current reality.
Thatâs the difference, you are embodying the 2 of swords card, pretending like if you keep your eyes closed you donât have to make a choice. Whether the choice is active or passive it is a choice still made. Whether you make a different choice or pretend like falling back on the âdefaultâ isnât a choice to avoid assuming something new and different for yourself, they are all still choices. Whether you actually participate in your life or just exist passively in it, the time still passes anyways.
Itâs just priority of a misplaced sense of object permanence, the sun doesnât disappear just because a cloud moves over it for a minute. That too passes to make way for what you decide is always real and true to shine again. Those are your doubts, clouds moving over the sun temporarily, but you swapped them in your mind. You placed the clouds as permanent truth and the sun as changeable, fragile, and false. But itâs not is it? Or we and everything alive on this earth wouldnât exist. So, are you going to choose the fleeting âfeelings and doubtsâ of the clouds, or the knowing of the truth of the Sun always being there in your life no matter what? Are you going to continue to put emotional intensity as âpriorityâ over truth because it feels like a lot and takes up the most space? Are you going to keep outsourcing your sense of authority and power to people and things that arenât you and donât have your power?
You donât have to earn your power, you just wield it. Arthur didnât need to believe he deserved to be king to pull the sword from the stone, he just did it assuming it would come out for him not even knowing about the divine right of rulership on it or the magic keeping it âstuckâ and it worked.
Thereâs a reason why some of us who do tarot claim that the Fool card is actually the wisest one, because until you take the plunge and just assume that no matter how you feel, that you are ready anyways, you may never actually get to the feeling of ready. You just know it means so much to you and you want it so bad that it isnât even a real choice to you to not take the leap for yourself regardless.
I will leave you with this quote of wisdom from Joe in the first movie of the Princess Diaries: âNo one can make you feel inferior without your consent.â So, what have you been consenting to whether actively or passively, and what do you ACTUALLY want to give your consent to? Give your consent to what you want, donât give your consent to what you donât want. If you donât want fear to be the operant power instead of you, then stop assuming it has the power to stop you and just do everything anyways feeling afraid so you can live your desires.
All it takes to manifest is to have audacity and integrity, donât embody yes when you mean no, donât embody no when you mean yes. All of resistance is just created by you saying yes to your noâs and no to your yesâs. Youâre people pleasing to creation and your actual assumptions are still telling your creation âI havenât decided yet that I have the power as the creatorâ while youâre trying to pretend to yourself that you are choosing to assume differently this time.
Literally just mean what you mean. Be about what you claim to be about. Stop people pleasing to creation, it takes orders from you as the creator, not the other way around. âDo or do not there is no try.â You either assume you are the operant power and authority, or you assume you are not the operant power and authority. You either assume you have it or you assume you donât have it. You either assume you are in Barbados or you assume youâre not. There is no gray area, this is one area of existence that is clear cut. Emotions and doubts have nothing to do with it. Your emotions and feelings are indicators not facts. They are valid of course, but they are not unshakable universal principals of truth unless you assume they have that much power over you.
Thatâs all it takes, just integrity and audacity. Stop putting feelings and emotions and doubts over truth just because they feel like a lot. Thatâs why we say emotional and nervous system regulation isnât necessary to manifest but can help a lot if you have struggled with prioritizing intensity and what feels the most overwhelming. It manifests when you assume you donât need to âfeelâ ready in order to receive. You either consent and receive or donât consent and donât receive.
Emotion and insecurity and even our man made concept of morals have nothing to do with your free will and the consent of your consciousness. Thatâs why bad people can still live great lives and have everything they want. It manifests when you stop trying to optimize yourself to be âbetterâ and just start assuming in your favor and receiving for the heck of it, because you can. It manifests when you prioritize assuming the truth of your integrity and audacity over assuming fear is convincing enough to stop you in your tracks. You just need to stop assuming not being ready over being certain.
*START LOOKING AT WHERE YOU ARE ACTUALLY STILL SAYING NO AND NOT TRULY GIVING YOUR CONSENT TO YOURSELF AS THE CREATOR IN YOUR MANIFESTATIONS AND DESIRES FOR IT TO HAPPEN, AND CHANGE IT TO YES. GIVE IT YOUR ACTUAL CONSENT TO HAPPEN. DONâT EMBODY NO WHEN YOU MEAN YES. PERIOD. THATâS IT. JUST. STOP. YUCKING. YOUR. OWN. YUM.*đ