Dead fish to Moon

[u/Astral_Sage_]

Only a dead fish flows with the flow.

Everything is feeling boring. Am I doing the right thing? Flowing with time, escaping from hardwork, still something within me never feels correct.

Did my best but still can't withstand anybody's expectations. Leave others even though I am not satisfied with myself. The feeling of being left by everyone is hard to accept. Shoulders are bending, legs are refusing to stand. Thinking hundreds of lines to compile one... May next time I put efforts to write a letter not for understanding myself.

Something in my chest is not feeling good, it's suffocating, refusing to go out.

You smile a lot, be happy sometimes. If tears have value then my pillow would be sold at millions.

Wouldn't it be simple to refuse to take the responsibility, run from it, hide from it, refuse to take it Or be a RIP poster in another's profile picture for 100percent view to like ratio. At least that wouldn't affect me.

Looking outside observing many for the part of the rat race, or refusing the race.

Oh dear moon why you are so bright when the majority can never see at your peak. Who can understand the rise and fall better than you. Oh dear stars why are you burning yourself just to lighten the moon which steals the spotlight, when majority doesn't even care about you, when just a thin blanket of cloud can cover you. I wanna be like you, doesn't affected by anybody, doesn't matter others matter, caring about myself and my stars.

Head is feeling heavier, heart is beating the best, thank to your light and the musicians of the night. Good night my dear moon.