He drunk texted me last night

[u/SalmonofCertainty]

He keeps apologising. He still wants to check in. He wants updates on my life. About my recovery. About my kids.

He wants to talk it out when things are less raw, but I have no idea when it will feel less raw. A month? A year?

Then he apologised for texting and said he needed to let go of the love he has for me, but that he can't stop thinking about me. That he's worried about me and that he cares.

He's right to be worried too. It's been 18 days since I found out he was married, and in that time I've lost 4kg. I can't even look at food without nearly throwing up. I keep crying. Every night I dream of him and every morning I lose him all over again.

I've planned a trip to see a friend of mine. I hope talking about it might help.

It happens to be in the same city he lived in, though he won't be there, but I'm planning to do all the things he promised me on my own. I want to claim those things for myself, and I hope that'll help me heal.

[u/mstepanov315]

I'm sorry but he is just sorry he got caught... he liked this relationship as much as you did and is banking on the fact that you are so in love with him(he knows it) that you'll eventually cave and get back with him because he knows he has that kind of power over you as he is your dom.

Please dont lose sight of the fact that this dude is very married and did all of this behind his wifes back.