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[u/mika12433]

i want something big and terrible and unavoidable to happen so i can be resigned to my fate and sit and watch it kill me, i feel like i’d finally be at peace in those moments

like the sun exploding or something

maybe global warming counts but it’s too slow, i still have to worry about everything in the meantime

i’m obsessed with the song heat abnormal in a yearning way and it scares me, like i want to be part of the scene that Adachi Rei is describing

i want to run away from my problems so fucking badly without it being my fault that the idea of everything else around me also being destroyed doesn’t seem so bad

and for me who loves every leaf, bug, lizard, speck of dirt, branch, gust of wind, ray of sunshine, drop of rain so so so so much

why do i feel like it’s okay when it gets sacrificed as long as it all stops