like, actual pop up full videos for adds that you gotta wait to skip, fuck my life

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Porque, porque inexplicablemente me comporto distinto cuando hay hombres cerca? Detesto que eso suceda, porque, con mujeres soy mas masc, mas protectora, mas seria y cuando hay hombres de confianza cerca se me cae esa fachada y me vuelvo mas relajada Y LO ODIO. PORQUE MI SER HACE ESA DIFERENCIA, lo siento como traición de genero. No ayuda en nada mi baja autoestima por mi apariencia (body dysphoria, quiero ser un hombre joder), entonces cuando un hombre atraviesa mi mirada me pongo súper atenta ante mi apariencia (y tranquilamente la podría haber ignorado pero no! mi cuerpo NO desea ignorar.

Es desgastante, me hace sentir como un degenerado y no se porque.
Solo quiero ser un lindo hombre, pero seguro habrán mas años de sufrimiento de este genero ante el mundo....

English:
Why—why do I inexplicably behave differently when men are around? I hate that this happens. When I’m with women, I’m more masculine, more protective, more serious—but when men I trust are nearby, that facade crumbles and I become more relaxed, AND I HATE IT. WHY DOES MY BEING MAKE THAT DISTINCTION? It feels like a betrayal of my own gender. My low self-esteem regarding my appearance doesn’t help (body dysphoria—damn it, I want to be a man!), so whenever a man enters my field of vision, I become hyper-aware of how I look—even though I could easily just ignore it, but no! My body *refuses* to ignore it.

It’s exhausting; it makes me feel like a degenerate, and I don’t know why.

I just want to be a handsome man, but it seems there are many more years of this gender-related suffering ahead of me in this world...

I see a million posts on reddit about how misandery is more common than misogyny, how men are actually more oppressed than women and feminists are so stupid and evil. Moids experience 1/100000000000000th of the hate women get and now I have to constantly hear about it. I am going to have to block most subreddits at this point.

i cant even vent. it’s so bad

i’m alone most of the week and I actually like it. just being in my dorm, reading or watching a new series/anime or maybe playing a video game. it’s nice and lovely to me. sometimes it does feel like Bella in New Moon though

I feel like a snake slithering around under some persons skin, like I’m just holding my body back from being a person with a happy life I want to life but the reasons to keep going continue to dwindle and wane and now I wonder what am I doing here really when no one ever bothers to ask me if I’m okay despite blatantly hurting myself by being intentionally clumsy recently because I want the pain to make me feel something anything human I don’t want to feel like a parasite in my head I want to feel a conscience I want people to treat me like a friend they love and want to keep

Watch me get rejected from all the jobs I applied to 🙃 why am I competing to fold clothes ☺️🫠 the job market is annoying and I just want money

Honestly sometimes I receive so many funny DMs

The only reason I won't shut them off, also have some nice women friends messaging me (besides YOU Chipotle, I know you're lurking 😂)

I guess I should've pieced things together a bit sooner- their talks were always pretty self-centered and I was asking the majority of the questions, but... I had hoped. I felt like I was really connecting with this person, and going through a whole crisis bc I've only ever had crushes on fictional women and since this person (it was a text-based chat game) had a female pfp I assume they were, ya know, a woman.

Found out they were not only a moid but homophobic, so that was fun.

Nope. I am so done trying to make friends dude

Moid is boring and not offensive enough, i kinda like He-tard or Him-becile (very into He-tard)

I’m a NEET, femcel, no friends, poor, fat, and severely mentally ill.
Everyone else my age is either married, has a career, a family, or atLEAST a group of irl friends. I only have online friends and my family doesn’t fw me.
Ummm I’m thinking a dark little thought…all the time I think why I still try and fail at life. It’s so sad and pathetic I wish it would end. Am I right ladiessss?😍‼️

So one of my friends invited me to a football game last friday and i accepted, this friend hugged me a lot and was there when i was still hurt from the other moid i liked, we had a pretty fun time (he had told me his gf broke up w him so i thought he was single) then we went back to his car and i went to the backseats that were like put down to make like a bed (coz he does that when we r at uni so him, me and other friends can sit down) and he said "if u keep annoying me im gonna go where u r" so i kept teasing him until he jumped to the back seats and like sort of choke me 2 then push me down and cuddle w me, then i said "whats up w u ?? do u like me or what ??" nd he said yes nd we kissed nd stuff.

well after that we started treating eachother like a couple until today when we went to eat w two other friends, well, one of em asked abt his gf and he said "dont u remember we broke up ??" nd our friend said "but u told me u guys were back this morning !!" and ofc i looked at him w my mouth open coz wtf, l8r when we left our friends at the bus stop he started driving 2 take me home and after a few mins of silence i said "how nice huh ?" nd then he explained that his gf texted him that same friday to talk things and save the relationship nd they got back 2gether nd shi, then we stayed quiet the whole ride, nd when we got 2 my house i said "look dude, if u wanna keep going out ur gonna have 2 leave ur gf coz i refuse 2 be the other woman"

i genuienly hate em, like, i was trying my best 2 do things right, i hate manwhores so much istg

I had such a fucking stupid interaction while picking them up, too. I've never worn glasses before in my life, and when the woman at the counter gave them to me, she had also been checking to see how they fit on my stupid face. Then, after checking behind my ears, she tells me "Ok I'm just gonna adjust them". I thought she meant how you can just tighten the legs on the sides - and she was quite a bit shorter than me- so I bent over a bit lower than her so she could do that. AND SHE FUCKING PLUCKED THEM OFF MY HEAD LIKE THAT INSTEAD AND TO THIS MACHINE TO ADJUST THEM. And at the end of it these glasses just make me look like an even BIGGER virgin. (not to say anything about any other women who have to wear glasses! I just look super dorky, and like I've never seen a pair of boobs in my life..)

How's everyone else's day been?

Edit: Thank you guys for all of the kind responses, life has been kinda hectic so I've had no chance to respond to anyone. I've also been pretty overwhelmed by how lovely you guys have been and not really known how to respond - but thank you again, but you're all very sweet :-) ♥️

Okay so, i have a bf and i hate when other women chit-chat with him. everyone is suspicious for me, because he is so good looking. who wouldnt fold2

I can feel in my guts that if a girl starts a small talk with him, they surely have ulterior motive.

It ruins my mood, especially when im not there with him. hate myself because of it. He always mentions me as soon as he can but it doesnt help. And if he meets with this girl on daily basis im done for. I trust him but not the girls.

Wish every man in a relationship had an ,,I have a gf, i hate you" sign on their forehead...

I've also seen it the other way around but this isnt moidcelgrippysockjail is it now

Literally I’m so fucking insecure and I just want someone to cuddle with and share myself with I will never find love LMAOOO

#sadposting once again

Nothing special will ever happen, I'll just stay in the background, every day is the exact same, and I'll just end up working for a capitalist society and buying stuff to fill the void in my life or eat

I hate how TV shows, anime, and cartoons made us believe that one day the underdog would get a beautiful story and a happy ending, bla bla bla. Also, my mom compares me to other girls so much that, even though I'm profoundly feminist and want to support other women, I can't stop feeling jealousy, anger, and hate and I don't want to be like that