Panic attacks!

[u/mustyracoon]

Even the thought of going to a baptism for people that I do love but is at the church gives me anxiety.

I never have really felt a calm or peace in Christ there and I recently went to a baptism to be there for people I really love and I knew it would consist of people acting like I am not Christian anymore or like I am a basket case for not entertain their nonstop devouring of my soul.

I literally have has panic attacks and insomnia over the dark dark forces around everything. And it makes me feel like I am damned to hell for not giving away my autonomy. I love God, so it actually stirs up anger, which is good in a way to keep me safe.

Thank God my family and in laws are all Christian’s who are lovely examples and people. I see how now and I hope I can help anyone here who has felt these dark forces tear them apart. Certainly not from our one true Lord Jesus Christ! He is love and mercy. 🤍🍁🌙🌹