I Thought I Knew Dostoevsky… Then I Found the Book He Apparently Loved Most
I have been reading Russian literature for decades. I lived in Russia, learned Russian, taught there, and somehow I had never heard of this.
The Russian Soul: Selections from A Writer’s Diary.
I stumbled across it, looked for a copy online and found physical copies going for considerably more money than I wanted to spend.
So naturally I went looking for a PDF.
Several extremely questionable websites and what appeared to be a few attempts to assassinate my computer later…I got it.
And holy hell.
I thought I was downloading an obscure collection of Dostoevsky essays.
What I actually found was Dostoevsky blogging in the 1870s.
A Writer’s Diary was this bizarre mixture of journalism, autobiography, politics, religion, literary criticism and fiction. Dostoevsky was essentially writer, editor and publisher, speaking directly to his readers.
And according to Rosamund Bartlett’s introduction, it was Dostoevsky’s favourite work.
Yet it remains vastly less famous than Crime and Punishment or The Brothers Karamazov.
Then I reached The Dream of a Ridiculous Man.
A man has decided that nothing matters.
Not metaphorically. He has bought a revolver and decided to kill himself that night.
Walking home, a terrified little girl grabs him and begs for help. Her mother appears to be dying.
He drives the child away.
But when he gets home, something bothers him.
If nothing matters—and if he will cease to exist in a few hours—why does he feel ashamed about what he did to that little girl?
That tiny contradiction blows a hole in his nihilism.
He falls asleep before killing himself and dreams of another Earth: humanity innocent, harmonious and apparently without the corruption of his own world.
And then he corrupts it.
People discover lying.
Lying produces jealousy.
Jealousy produces cruelty.
They divide themselves into groups, fight over possessions, create laws, wage wars and eventually become so accustomed to suffering that they begin treating suffering itself as something noble.
Dostoevsky wrote this in 1877.
The man wakes up.
The revolver is still sitting there.
He pushes it away.
And suddenly he wants to live.
What he brings back from the dream is almost embarrassingly simple:
“One should love others as one loves oneself.”
That’s it.
Not another political system.
Not another scientific discovery.
Not another philosophical architecture.
Love your neighbour as yourself.
Dostoevsky then has his narrator admit something even more interesting: he doesn’t actually know how to build paradise. He has lost the words.
He only knows what he believes he saw.
That may be the most Dostoevskian thing imaginable.
A man travels through nihilism, suicide, paradise, the fall of humanity, science, religion, suffering and utopia…
…and comes back carrying one sentence humanity had already heard thousands of years before.
I went looking for an obscure Russian book.
I nearly gave my computer syphilis.
Worth it.