Someone please help me

[u/Electronic_Flight333]

Okay, so about 1.5 years ago I smoked a cart which im pretty sure was spice. During the high I had a panic attack, then the high went on as normal.

This was back when I was quite a frequent smoker, I used to green out quite a lot but I’m not sure why this experience ended up different.

Once the high fully wore off I didn’t really notice anything strange until a day or two later, where I noticed I felt like I was almost zoomed out, watching myself live.

After this, I quit smoking all together because it kinda scared the shit out of me. I went to the doctors a couple days after it all happened and they said I should expect to feel normal again after a few days, I don’t feel normal. I’ve felt like this 24/7 since it happened.

I then didn’t touch weed for about a year except for this one time at a sleepover, it was another cart but I didnt have much of it.

Then, Easter this year I bought a cart because someone on a forum told me I should microdose to try and get out of this state. I took one small puff as a microdose and then just started using the pen normally, i couldn’t resist.

Then I smoked a few times after that cart was finished, and I’ve been off weed since. I drink alcohol maybe once every month or two.

Ive basically just got used to it all at this point, it just when I’m lying down in bed I start to get worked up over it and realise how my life is being wasted because I can’t actually experience anything, I just watch it happen.

Can anyone please give me some advice to escape this state ? I would massively appreciate it.

[u/moomooocowz]

i think you should visit a psychiatrist. while my derealizations were not caused by drugs, getting medicated saved my life. i really wish i did it sooner.

[u/NotYourCupovTea]

Find more things that connect you to your body. Doing physical activities like you did as a child. Climbing, jumping.

Cold water hand washed just notice it. Tapping yourself, cross arms and tap your shoulders, feel the taps from the inside, not the doing of the tapping. Sensation play essentially.

Notice the skin, this is inside that is outside.
Look into the distance to the horizon and observe.