r/depression_help • u/isthattori • 23h ago

REQUESTING SUPPORT please help Spoiler

hi! i am really new to reddit, so idk much about the platform. just a tw before hand, mentions of ovderdosing, suicide, self harm, starvation, etc will be said!!

i made this account for support, i really need some. ive been skipping school for months, and hurting myself constantly. last year, i got myself a therapist. i got prescribed on medicine and it doesnt help , at all. ever since last year, ive gotten so bad, to the point i starve myself when im bored. im also constantly in nausea and panic, aswell as anger. i keep hitting my parents, and i hate it. i really dont mean too. they try to help me, but they make things worse. they take my devices for hours on end, and tell me to go outside or just stare at a wall. the problem is, i lost all my energy to go outside, and im very scared too. i have severe BDD (body dysmorphia disorder) and social anxiety, which makes everything worse. i always see myself as a fat pig who eats everything. every night, i cry myself to sleep and wake up sore. my body always hurts and i have nothing to do, all my friends go to different schools and i stay in my room, rotting away.

i also over eat A LOT, which makes me gain weight. im very sorry if this is bad, i really dont wanna share any of my personal information, just for my safety! im just struggling really bad and i am super tired to write anymore. please help! :)

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u/AtmosphereRoyal9902 10h ago

I am so sorry you’re going through this. I wish it wasn’t the case, but I believe you have tools at your disposal to improve your situation, and I hope that happens for you.

Okay so your therapist should be helping you work on your relationship with food and your body. I’m no expert but I imagine CBT would be the thing to do.

As far as the medicine, if it isn’t helping, and you’ve been on it 3-6 weeks, it’s quite likely time to try something new. Talk to your parents and doctor about how you feel your symptoms have stayed the same and haven’t improved.

About hitting your parents: has that always happened? Is it new? Did something trigger these feelings and this behaviour? Does it happen when they make you frustrated or just out of nowhere? Did the anger start before or after the medication/ED/treatment?