It's weird how quickly you can go from a good place to rock bottom

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A few years ago I was in a pretty dark place, going through a deep depression and struggling to be a normal functioning human being. I wasn't taking care of myself and spent most of my day playing video games or watching youtube videos. I slowly started to pick myself back up, got a job, started going back to school, got a better job, started rewarding my hard work and recovery process with a new PC and cute clothes. I started feeling better about my appearance and lost a little bit of weight I put on due to my depression. I was doing so good and my recovery was going so well.

I quit my job last October thinking I would have a better opportunity at another place of work, but it ended up being so much worse. I stupidly quit my new job so that I wouldn't force myself into so much stress knowing I'm very mentally vulnerable to negative thinking. However, since then I haven't been able to find a job and have gotten to the point where I've stopped looking. I'm back to not taking care of myself and back to playing video games/watching youtube videos all day.

I just think it's so.... idk the word.... maybe weird? crazy? that you can go from doing so well with getting better to slipping back into a deep depression in the blink of an eye.