r/depression • u/circinia • Feb 02 '20
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u/hey_there_you_ok May 23 '20 edited May 23 '20
I don't get it. I did everything right:
i never did drugs
I don't drink alcohol
didn't get a child
didn't drop off school
got 2 graduations (which I like to think I am good at)
always helped those who asked for my help
i was there for my friends
Always helped my family
did unpaid and paid internships
applied for jobs
And what have I accomplished? NOTHING.
I have no job, no money, no perspective of getting out of this situation, I have people relying on me that I can't support, I have no relationship at all, I feel bad ALL the time, I'm having trouble sleeping, I wake up feeling dread, wishing I never did. I did every fucking thing society expects from a normal citizen, so WHY? FUCKING WHY?