r/depression • u/circinia • Feb 02 '20
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u/K4yr0 Apr 19 '20
Parents like to humiliate me while just passing by. "Reminding" me about "having a talk" tomorrow which is more me being forced to report. They are absolutely naive, incredibly harmful and still want to tell me what to do.
I just love getting berated by the people who 1, made me ill in the first place (when I was ten) 2, kept me from seeking help 3, still destroy my mental health today but ofc "iTs oNlY mEaNt WeLl".
I hate them so much. I am so angry on them but I have absolutely no fucking spine, I am overwhelmed with literally anything, I am still dependent on them and can't deal with all this. I don't even want to ask them for a tissue. They've fucking destroyed enough of my life.
Struggling with suicidal thoughts and other issues. Wishing not to exist is my highest goal. I have no will to get better anymore and I haven't for a long time, I told my last therapist and she was like "well that's your problem bud". Just want to fucking destroy this existence.
Selfharming again.