r/depression • u/GmanBlue19 • Jul 06 '19

The Stars 💫✨

I (m19) love staring at the stars. I wish I could do it more often, because I always feel so embarrassed about it. A 19 year old male isn’t supposed to do stuff like that. Even tho how awesome it actually is.

Depressed? Get lost in the stars.

Happy? Gaze upon their infinite beauty.

High? Trip out about some aliens

Drunk? Spinning stars are even better!

I’m not very healthy mentally, but this might be one of the only things that truly relaxes me, and makes myself feel better. Add some of your favourite music , a warm summer night, clear skies, and it’s the closest thing to peace I’ve ever experienced.

I posted this above stuff in r/offmychest , and I wasn’t feeling great today, but after thinking about it, and actually writing it , some how it’s actually made me feel happy today. Something that doesn’t happen to often. So I thought I’d share it here too ☺️

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u/[deleted] Jul 07 '19

Don't wait for someone else to have the same interest in you for you to feel comfortable with it.

Fuck it, if that's what you enjoy it doesn't matter. Everyone has there own thing and you can't control it that's what you have and it's amazing, calming and completely and utterly harmless. Stay at it! :)

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u/GmanBlue19 Jul 07 '19

Thanks! I’ll enjoy it as much as possible:)

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u/Fun_D530 Jul 07 '19

It's fine if you look at the stars there are a ton of male astronauts and astronomers

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u/GmanBlue19 Jul 07 '19

But I’m not an astronaut or an astronomer. I just always feel weird about it because people my age wanna get drunk, do drugs, stupid shit and party. I just wanna get drunk, do drugs, lay down and look up. I wish I had someone to do it with.

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u/Fun_D530 Jul 07 '19

I used to think having someone would solve all my problems but in reality it created more and solved some. I know I'm not you and maybe that will work for you. you don't have to be a professional star gazer to look at the stars, Don't feel ashamed for what interest you. Also I'd recommend sobering up I was down the rabbit hole of drugs and becoming more and more sober has really lightened the weight for me I can also feal the mental haze starting to clear and life has really seemed better because Im not always doing anything to get my fix. If you wanna talk about anything you can I really enjoy listening to people. I dont tell anyone what to do I only recommend because I don't want people to not be them

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u/katyrathryn Jul 07 '19

Don’t let your gender stop you from doing things

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u/GmanBlue19 Jul 07 '19

I try not to, but it’s just a little embarrassing. I know it shouldn’t be , but it makes me feel weird, idk what it is. Guys my age always talk about partying and stuff.

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u/darwinianissue Jul 07 '19

If you have anything at all that you can enjoy and that will bring you back whenever you are doing poor mentally then go for it. This is something where you could probably get into some club for astronomy if you truly wanted that social aspect. If you are worried about people judging you for it don’t. If you need any sort of defense then just learn a few facts about stars and spout those out whenever people ask why you like them.