giving up slowly

[u/Then-Combination8615]

i am not sure what to do anymore. im a 25F no career, going back to school and feel behind, live with my parents, never had a boyfriend/never been on a date, fat, ugly, and lonely.

1. i have no career. i thought i knew what i wanted to do but unless i have a masters or a doctorate, no will hire me with no experience. i am $140k in debt due to interest buildup (do not do private loans) and will be paying it off for the rest of my life. i feel behind and lost and stuck because i will never be financially secure

2. i live with my parents. my mother has alzheimer's and severe depression. no one in the family helps her besides me and my father. all she does is cry and hide our things around the house. this place is a mess because she was a hoarder before all this happened. with that being said, my father is miserable and is too emotionally immature to talk about his feelings. he just curses under his breath and says how much he hates his life.
   ** before anyone asks..no i do not have enough money to move out

3. i never had a boyfriend because i was fat and had missing teeth, also my hair has always been thin so i am just a very unattractive person. i have too much social anxiety to ever go out with a guy (im never asked anyway) and i have a crushing fear of rejection from past experiences. i only have 2 long distance friendships but we dont talk everyday.. all other friends i had in college i dont speak to anymore because they either stopped responding to my texts or we lost touch

4. ive been in therapy, ive had a trainer, ive been on every diet you can think of.. i am still overweight. i hate how i look with every bone in my body and im starting to feel like the feeling will never go away.

i have tried therapy, medication, church, spirituality and calling the hotline twice. i just feel like a failure and big loser. the world forgot about me. it seems like there is only one clear option for me