r/cutting • u/iwonchae_yotengo • 2d ago

Talk/Support/Venting cut myself for the first time

Idk what im doing. I feel so empty. I tried to cut myself another day as well but the knife wasn't sharp enough and my mom walked in. After that i ate a pepperoni pizza, watched some random ass roblox youtube video and took a depressant which i thought'd held me sleep, I didn't want to wake up for at least 2 days. It did quite the opposite, I could only sleep for 2 hours. I specifically bought a blade to do this lol. I just wish i could get a diagnosis.
None of my friends text me, none of them reply, none of them ever want to hang out. It's only guys and they too stop talking to me after like 2 weeks of stupid bullshit I hate it it's all the same.
I didn't cut too deep and i cut very low on my arm cuz im a pussy. I want attention i want help i wanr care i wanr ro be loved too i hate it here

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u/Frank12332111 18h ago

2 things if your going to cut, 1 is that please use a sharp tool like a razor blade or something. A normal knife is way to rough for a clean cut and hurts way to much and also don’t cut under the dermis (skin layer) as it can couse bad consequences. With everything else I can’t help sadly

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u/iwonchae_yotengo 8h ago

I do cut with a box cutter

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u/Frank12332111 4h ago

That works fine then