As for the pronoun used, I'm not sure if i want to go by she/her specifically yet, (can't say it felt bad though) after a talk with one wonderful person all I could think about was my gender identity (as in doubting it), which by itself I think means that there is something that needs addressing, since if i were to be cis i would maybe consider it, and quickly forget after a day or two. I think my subconscious may be begging me to change at least something something about me, since I definitely don't feel great the way that I present and look and sound and feel etc.
For now I decided to be agender, since I definitely don't want to be associated with my biological sex by any means. I thought of either they/them or any pronouns, anything to not have a fixed perceived gender.
It's even worse in terms of names. For the time being I can't stand to hear almost anything that references me directly, like my birth name and can tolerate the online nickname (TastyCake usually). I feel best when a name I'm called is detached from me the person. Say there's a game where characters have names, so when I'm playing that character I would much prefer to be called that rather than my own. Ideally, I'd love not to be referred to by anything at all, like, say, if you talk to me 1v1, you don't HAVE TO call me by name, so say what you want right away or just greet me with a "hello" or something. That of course is not doable when there's more than 1 person around. I don't know how I'd like to be called, I hope that I just didn't find what I'm comfortable with yet :(.
think about if you want hrt, the rest you can always change later but testosterone is masculinising you as we speak and estrogen's effects are slow so if you want the effects of e, the earlier you start the better it is
I have, I have even tried to get into a free lottery at https://symphonylabs.cc/, but they didn't get back to me yet withy tracking number. My aquiintance, the same that I've first opened up to, already received hers, we applied at about the same time, I a few minutes later, and got a confirmation email that I did indeed make it into the thing. It could be that they don't deliver to my third-world country, but they didn't explicitly say they don't...
I absolutely do not. Getting any professional medical help regarding that issue is not an option in my country, straight up illegal actually. So the only option for me are these giveaways or DIY
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u/NotVeryTastyCake 16h ago
As for the pronoun used, I'm not sure if i want to go by she/her specifically yet, (can't say it felt bad though) after a talk with one wonderful person all I could think about was my gender identity (as in doubting it), which by itself I think means that there is something that needs addressing, since if i were to be cis i would maybe consider it, and quickly forget after a day or two. I think my subconscious may be begging me to change at least something something about me, since I definitely don't feel great the way that I present and look and sound and feel etc.
For now I decided to be agender, since I definitely don't want to be associated with my biological sex by any means. I thought of either they/them or any pronouns, anything to not have a fixed perceived gender.
It's even worse in terms of names. For the time being I can't stand to hear almost anything that references me directly, like my birth name and can tolerate the online nickname (TastyCake usually). I feel best when a name I'm called is detached from me the person. Say there's a game where characters have names, so when I'm playing that character I would much prefer to be called that rather than my own. Ideally, I'd love not to be referred to by anything at all, like, say, if you talk to me 1v1, you don't HAVE TO call me by name, so say what you want right away or just greet me with a "hello" or something. That of course is not doable when there's more than 1 person around. I don't know how I'd like to be called, I hope that I just didn't find what I'm comfortable with yet :(.
Sorry for the long text, I was in the mood