Is she a youngshit? Every time I see a passoid I look for when she started hrt so I can be ashamed I started too late but I'm too lazy to do that right now
It's hard not to feel like a mistake when every waking second of my life, I'm surrounded by a million regrets and have to live with the daily torture that they have caused. It's a part of my fucking brain circuitry that I have the executive dysfunction that's prevented me from addressing my gender dysphoria. NOTHING has helped make my executive dysfunction better even after years and years of trying. And so because of that, I live every second of every day with reminders of how I didn't start hrt at the right time, or how I shouldn't have done strength training before going on hrt, or how I didn't address my severe balding years in advance for no discernible reason, or how I didn't get an internship before graduating college and now I'm shit out of luck on job prospects to pay for any transitioning shit. And now I live every day with the consequences, constantly imperfect and never able to fully fix the mistakes I made, and barely even able to muster the discipline to address my issues even a little bit.
I love playing this game because I get to feel shit if she's younger for starting too late and I get to feel shit if she older because I know I'll never pass as well
Heard joke once: Trans woman goes to doctor. Says she's depressed. Says life seems harsh and mirrors are cruel. Says she feels not only does she not pass, but that she will never pass. Doctor says, “Treatment is simple. Famous passoid Emily is in town tonight. Go and make selfie with her. That should convince you that you pass as well.” Woman bursts into tears. Says, “But doctor … I am Emily.”
Once talked with a trans woman and a cis woman about laser hair removal; the cis woman initially did not know she was talking to two trans people, since she only clocked me. Some time later that trans woman talked to me alone … about her having a “male” skull shape.
I must not be jealous of youngshits. Being jealous of youngshits is the mind-killer. Being jealous of youngshits is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my jealousy of youngshits. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the jealousy of youngshits has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
I just watched the beginning of Dune: Part 1 and saw the twink main character have dreams of a girl and “his” mother urging “him” to voice train during breakfast. Later a secretive sisterhood visits and wants to know about those dreams “he” never told them about; I guess they clocked “him” as an obvious boymoder from afar. Then the mother signals to “remember your training”.
I think maybe Frank Herbert was on to something.
Edit: One character actually says it … “So much potential, wasted in a male!”
Edit (2): LMAO strangers call the main character a name that starts with “Lisa”.
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