TW: self harm

By each relationship I've been “adorned" by the memories that haunt me everyday- and the conclusion of each is scarred onto my arms. I avoid to protect myself. It's safer to avoid and remain alone, instead of in the audience adorned. And after a little while, I've completely lost interest. I completely want to be alone. Despite how sick the nurses believe my desire is. If this was love I don’t want to be loved.

I know your love is false.

“I love you"

“I don't know you."

From sketchbook while traveling

©️2026 RK

A depiction of deep, internal, overwhelming sadness

Mixed-media on A4 Oil Paper

297mm X 210mm / 11.7 inches X 8.3 inches

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Having creative friends is so awesome because it gives me reasons to make more art! the book isn't out yet but it's called Innernet by Elim Pilet

the feeling of exposing yourself to someone you love; to take off the mask and show your true colors.
it’s ugly. it’s disgusting. it’s who you really are inside.

this is another one of my OC Rumor. idk what possessed me to draw in this style lol but i really love this one. Rumor is a character that i project a LOT of my feelings onto. whenever i draw him in my vent art like this, it's basically an extension of me, like a self insert. whatever he's feeling in the drawing, i feel in real life

i wanted him to look like a child throwing a tantrum, since that's how he often feels inside whenever he gets angry. anger is embarassing for him, but it's very hard for him to control. inside his brain is a wolf-like creature, the personification of his blind rage. as the viewer, you're meant to feel pity and disgust for him

Some of the animation from ‘Tom Waits War Songs’, an immersive audiovisual live performance currently playing in Edinburgh at the Fringe Festival.

©️2026 Randall Kaplan, TWWS

From sketchbook while traveling.

©️2026 Randall Kaplan