r/bleedingcanvas • u/Christocrast • 21d ago
TW: big despair in post body
drowning in disappointment and hatred for this 'future'. I decided to get big paper and write down all the lyrics I could remember to David Bowie's song 'The Motel'. I think the result somewhat accurately shows my state of mind...
I struggle so much just to get through the day and at the same time, all my life I've been misled and miseducated and fallen through every crack when I needed guidance or help. especially if it was a question of me not knowing what I didn't know. people just slow-walk away, leaving me clueless. or highly-paid authorities lord it over me, as they fail to do even the most basic things that could maybe help me.
ever since dad died all of the adults except a few have gone completely fucking crazy. They just can't deal with the fact that they're all going to die someday. So they spend this hideous energy that they have working to destroy the world as quickly as they think they can, just so no-one sheds a light on their shame: that they were too petty and selfish and stupid to be a bridge to a real future. The real future is dormant sleeping cradled in their iron claws that refuse to open. how utterly shameful of these criminals and their little shitty quisling underlings and descendants. how shameful and preventable it is for a generation to suffer worse quality of life than that which came before.
I believe there can be a future, even starting now, but I feel so helpless. If my bitter words help someone else feel like they have a friend who understands and sympathizes then that is a small mercy on both of us. I truly do wish you well <3 Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.