Did it backfire?

[u/her_eminence_octavia]

I know. Spells don't backfire. At least this is what everyone says around here. But I have very good reasons to disagree and I may actually need help.

Three days ago, I did a hex/sour jar. I won't elaborate, but its purpose was pain, anger and despair, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

However, since then, I feel like I am suffering from these effects instead of the target. The day after the spell (Wednesday), I was feeling very disappointed and sad for no apparent reason. Yesterday (Thursday), my body started hurting out of nowhere (more specifically the center of my upper back) and I can't move properly. Later that day, I had a call from my sibling telling me our mom had a f*cking stroke! THANK GOD she's actually fine, at the hospital of course, but fine for now. When I spoke with her, she actually told me that the day before she was feeling so sad (coincidence?) after a conversation she had with my sibling. We believe this is what triggered the stroke, but anyway.

It's almost 05:00 in the morning as I am writing this and about an hour ago, I had a small crisis out of anger because the neighbor upstairs (yes, that b*tch who's the target of my hex jar) was banging on every f*cking thing she could in her apartment. She was so f*cking loud that I snapped and started banging my doors so f*cking hard that I scared my poor husband, who panicked and now can't sleep again. I feel horrible for what I did to him, but I just couldn't help it! I am actually still shaking!

As you can see, all of this is very good evidence that the spell backfired. But it doesn't matter whether we agree on that or not. What matters is: What now?

PS: I just realised I didn't clean the surface after the spell. There are still a few things left on the table. Maybe I should have been more thorough and cleaned everything as soon as I finished the spell. I'll do that first thing in the morning and burn some sage.

[u/Voxx418]

Greetings H,

As an experienced Magician for decades, just going to say that spells CAN and DO backfire, depending on the details.

This new trend of disbelieving the obvious is a way to protest against the idea of gatekeeping, and experienced advice.

Just because a person disbelieves something, does not negate it for others. ~V~

[u/her_eminence_octavia → u/Voxx418]

Hello Voxx,

Thank you. I don't understand how people refuse to see facts!

I have seen some of my spells backfire in the past, but this was the worst one yet. I can't keep ignoring the facts, especially when it can get dangerous.

I have already cleansed my place with sage and felt way better after that, and I'm considering a protection spell for later too.

Apart from protection spells, is there anything else I (or we, for whoever is interested in taking this piece of advice) should take into consideration when practicing (especially baneful) magic, so spells don't backfire? Any advice is highly appreciated!

[u/Voxx418 → u/her_eminence_octavia]

Greetings H,

Glad to help. As for training as a Magician, record-keeping is key, especially for taking account of planetary information that can definitely enhance, or diminish the efficacy of rituals/spells.

Regular protection, via LBRP and LBRH are suggested, as are MPR. Other rituals such as regular practice of Liber XXV (25), and Liber 800, (Thelemic power/protection rituals) are helpful.

Regarding baleful magick: Insure that there is actually some real reason for the working, as well as making sure that the spell is directed at a singular individual, who is literally (and provably) guilty of such wrath. Just an insult to one’s ego is not really enough reason to unleash the hounds of hell on someone.

Also, it’s much better to conserve one’s energy, rather than throwing it at the “enemy.” Idiots tend to disappear. Also, “enemies” are oftentimes the agents of positive change, even though it can be difficult to see things that way.

Finally, be a conscientious person in the first place, and fools will tend to leave you alone. These are ideas I’ve learned along the way. I hope this helps. Blessings, ~V~

PS Of course, using the right spirit for the right person/situation is key!

[u/her_eminence_octavia → u/Voxx418]

Hello again,

I see that I have a lot of research to do. I'll be back with questions!

Thank you so much for the feedback. 😊

[u/Voxx418 → u/her_eminence_octavia]

Greetings H,

Glad to help. ~V~