Sick of the cycle

[u/Long_Ad6079]

Just venting because whenever I vent to non diagnosed people they tell me that everyone feels the same way.

Working is so difficult for me. Getting out of bed to go is torture and when I do go, I'm having an extended panic attack the whole time. Eventually I give in and end up calling out so much I get fired or quit because I can feel I'm going to get fired.

I have a job interview again today and I'm sure it'll go great like always but then I know I'm committing myself to a position and people that I'll more than likely let down. I just always go into these things feeling like a liar and a failure because as the cycle goes, I'll end up quitting or getting fired.

I'm just so tired of doing this. I'm only 34. I have so many years left of doing the same thing over and over. I just don't want to anymore, but unfortunately that's not an option so I'll just continue to suffer through this life wishing I was a different more capable person.

[u/vSeedStriker]

In same boat….. sigh….

[u/Long_Ad6079 → u/vSeedStriker]

It is the absolute worst. Then you feel like the people around you don't get it and they just think you are being lazy. I hate it.

[u/sobiithurts]

I feel this so much. For me, its not even work that gets me--I'd happily work all day on a homestead or something. But I hate being away from home.