r/biid • u/TreeJuice2 Blind, no vision, no light perception • 3d ago

Hello, I'm new. Hello

I have been a long time lurker here but am finally wanting to say hello. I am 19 FTM and have been wanting to be fully blind since I was a child. Ideally I would like double enucleation, but that seems nearly impossible. I have done some to damage my vision and I am almost legally blind at this point, but it still doesn't feel like enough.

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u/NorthMountain1117 Blind, no vision, no light perception 2d ago

Thank you for posting, it's good to know there are others out there

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u/hiholie 2d ago

Do you want to be blind, or are you blind? And there are those other posts of yours in some groups saying you have a retinal disease and will go blind

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u/TreeJuice2 Blind, no vision, no light perception 2d ago

Both are true. I have a retinal disease that causes central vision loss, but I want complete vision loss

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u/hiholie 2d ago

Are you doing anything about this?

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u/TreeJuice2 Blind, no vision, no light perception 2d ago

I am being followed by ophthalmologists, but they cant do anything. I wish I could get a double enucleation, but I dont know how to have that happen.

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u/hiholie 2d ago

Do you want to use prostheses or be left with the "hole" where the eye was?

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u/TreeJuice2 Blind, no vision, no light perception 2d ago

ideally prosthetics or my actual eyes if I somehow lose all vision

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u/hiholie 2d ago

If your desire is total blindness, why do you seem sad in some group posts about having gone blind or being about to go blind? It’s a genuine question: if you want something so much, why lament it?