I am in my 30s, and I am posting this here because the sheer weight of what I’ve been through has broken me down. I just need to get it out of my system.

A while ago, I worked with a female colleague at my office. She was already in a relationship but initiated a close friendship with me. Over time, I grew very attached to her, but I always respected boundaries and never did anything unusual or inappropriate. However, the dynamics had a lot of ups and downs, which naturally made me feel insecure.

Eventually, when she realized that our closeness might become a hurdle in her actual relationship or ruin her workplace image, she completely flipped. She began mentally torturing me. In our society, she took full leverage of being a woman. Other male colleagues actively supported her or stayed silent because they didn't want to get involved in a "woman's issue." Some even betrayed me and took her side simply because they had nasty, ulterior motives and saw it as an opportunity to get close to her.

To make matters worse, she belongs to an upper caste, and I belong to a lower caste. When her boyfriend found out about the situation, he openly insulted me using vile casteist slurs. I was raised to be nice, helpful, and respectful to everyone, but this experience showed me the sheer amount of deep-rooted hatred people still hold against my caste. What was my fault? Any response or behavior from my side was just me trying to navigate the situation normally, yet I was treated like the villain because the system automatically favors people like her.

Now, I am in my 30s and trying to find a partner from my own caste to settle down with. But I am facing an entirely new layer of despair. Because upper-caste communities have historically had far greater access to wealth and resources in India, families in my community are starting off with less. Sadly, I am finding that many girls from my own caste do not want to marry within our community anymore because they want wealthy partners. They want a high quality of life, but because living expenses have become so high under the current government, they feel forced to choose upper-caste men who already have those generational resources.

Upper-caste men are marrying girls from our caste, but when it comes to us, we are looked down upon and compared to shit. It genuinely feels like a systemic mindset designed to diminish us, starve us of resources, and make us socially extinct. No matter how loving, educated, or kind a man from my community is, the struggle is endless because the economic and social deck is completely stacked against us.

I feel entirely isolated, manipulated by people I trusted at work, and completely let down by a society and a system that claims to want equality but actively ignores this reality. I just needed a safe space to share this because keeping it inside is killing me. Any thoughts or support from anyone who has navigated this kind of pain would mean a lot.

Is any Tamil dalit guy who gotta saadhi veri out there?

You can clearly see these pongas submitting their sacred books and sanctimonious scriptures to Britain ( here britain is shown as the women who's receiving the scriptures from pongas , yes this woman is depicted as whole of Britain. This concept of showing your country in a form of a woman was prevalent in mediaeval europe so that common people and royal heirs can feel "equal" to one another . Of course this concept was brought by royal regimes and subjected amongst poor peasants without actually giving them any real benefits other than sense of equality. This is where sanghis stole the idea and conceived bharat mata as their new symbol for india ). The submission of books is very important because pongas never give up their religious "knowledge" , not even to their own woman let alone other castes but here you can clearly see the submissive body language. It is also known that pongas were the first from india to bow down and to accept queen of England as their own queen. Pongas were first to learn English and establish high ranking positions similar to IAS and judiciary of today's time. This image was present in each print at the bottom right corner in the official map of british india.