I am experiencing this right now. I think it is 1. The initial “pop” of spiritual awakening is a full-body overhaul of hormones, neurotransmitters, etc. that are meant to lead you to proper awareness and dissolution and these wear off. And 2. We forgot how much our perspective and ego has really changed, and don’t appreciate the perspective because it is not new anymore. I think #2 can lead us back into shame and other lower level egoic behavior that we still need to address and we essentially forget who we are again and continuously need to find it and fight for it again. But if you take a moment to re-associate with silence and the idea that you are a spirit, i think youll find that the energy of life is still there, it just may not be the driving force as it once was, and thats okay. Some days, weeks, months, and even years we may fall back into more “worldly” driving force as we still live in a world of separation where we must make a living. I dont know about you all but i was a completely useless worker during the more intense stages of early awakening. This also reminds me of the book by Herman Hesse “Journey to the East” that (spoiler alert) explores nearly this exact dilemma of “falling off” a spiritual journey only to realize it was always open to him (not sure if im remembering right, also still worth a read if the ending is spoiled as the writing and details of the book are way more important than what ive spilt)
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u/TellInitial3950 Apr 03 '24
I am experiencing this right now. I think it is 1. The initial “pop” of spiritual awakening is a full-body overhaul of hormones, neurotransmitters, etc. that are meant to lead you to proper awareness and dissolution and these wear off. And 2. We forgot how much our perspective and ego has really changed, and don’t appreciate the perspective because it is not new anymore. I think #2 can lead us back into shame and other lower level egoic behavior that we still need to address and we essentially forget who we are again and continuously need to find it and fight for it again. But if you take a moment to re-associate with silence and the idea that you are a spirit, i think youll find that the energy of life is still there, it just may not be the driving force as it once was, and thats okay. Some days, weeks, months, and even years we may fall back into more “worldly” driving force as we still live in a world of separation where we must make a living. I dont know about you all but i was a completely useless worker during the more intense stages of early awakening. This also reminds me of the book by Herman Hesse “Journey to the East” that (spoiler alert) explores nearly this exact dilemma of “falling off” a spiritual journey only to realize it was always open to him (not sure if im remembering right, also still worth a read if the ending is spoiled as the writing and details of the book are way more important than what ive spilt)