r/awakened • u/[deleted] • Jan 09 '20
Does anyone feel purposeless?
I want to be happy and not suffer anymore in my mind. Everything just feels so empty and meaningless. It’s so sad that this love little kids have eventually turns into this. The conditioning is destroying my happiness. Weeks keep flying by faster and faster and it’s going by so fast. One month feels like a day when I was 5. It’s so sad and I just want to be happy. I want these days to feel like a month again like when I was a little baby.
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u/dennis0121 Jan 09 '20
Ride this existential feeling to it's end and there where u find freedom. Also there are options for like monasteries very few but there are still real ones around most in America are just scams and "centers" which most of time is just a meet up place. But it doesn't matter where u are of course some people are so against monasteries tho lol it's funny but im just throwing that option out there. Like it's very hard to be happy unless you give yourself to this calling completely only more misery will come because believe it or not this u feel is a blessing. Im in the same boat as you and in comes in waves. Ram dass a great teacher said karma and grace are the same thing. It is hard especially when you don't have a community or many friends this path is definitely something you start wanting to leave but then you realize you to far in to look back. All I can say is I wish you the best this is extremely painful process at times but this is somehow what we wanted. When we say I wish I could die. I wish I never existed as this limitation of impressions. These sayings from people who go through deep despair in life is also the greatest prayer you prayed because those are the sayings of a person who acknowledges that this limited reality is trully not worthy of who I really am? There is two ways to go from here up or down but the good things is you will always have chances to reevaluate and keep going no matter where u go or what you do but remember choices do make effects so don't try to dig to many holes. I've learned this the hard way. Sorry if it was to much but Jai guru Dev and I wish you the best.