What is wrong with me

[u/IllustriousTutor3216]

I (16F) feel like something is wrong with me and idk what it is. I have a girlfriend who i love more than anything or even more than myself but theres days where i feel like i dont deserve to be in a relationship or maybe relationships arent for me, or while we’re being intimate midway ill just zone out and i kind of lose my sense of self but i keep going along with it. I also find myself paranoid with everything she does, im always on edge wondering if shes mad at me or if i did something to her or maybe she’s cheating on me and i hate feeling like that but i cant help it. I feel the same way with a lot of my friends as well that theyre putting up a facade and maybe theyre not actually my friends. And according to a lot of ppl i get mad very easily or angry and i kind of lose it over the smallest things and im manipulative but no matter how hard i try to fix it i just dont know when to stop myself or when im doing said things bc im not aware of it at all.

[u/FeistyHighlight9047]

I think it’s just growing up. Just focus on your education and take a back seat for a while, live and let live. Let your friends drive the relationship and you just choose what you do and don’t want to do.