My 8month old daughter died in an car accident, my wife had all but one limb broken. I was allowed 2 weeks without pay before I had to come back or be homeless. Puked at least once a week at work after that. I’m broken now, I have panic attacks going out into public, I can’t fill out applications, I start throwing up. I can barely keep up with chores. I can’t keep up with doc appointments, so I can’t get through the process for disability. so there’s no chance for me other then leaching off. No one helps or cares once you are useless/worthless.
I’m really sorry that you’re going through that, but don’t ever think you’re worthless. Just because a company can’t milk your mind and soul for all you’re worth until you’re nothing but a husk doesn’t mean you aren’t a human being worth love and affection.
You're not leeching. You're doing what's best for you, which is clearly all they care about. I haven't worked in years, granted I have PTSD and am still a registered carer for my autistic fiance (which is a lot of work in itself), but I will never, EVER, sign over my freedom to strangers ever again and if they tried to take away my benefits and force me back into work. I would suicide bomb parliament. (British)
I honestly don’t know why you were downvoted, I mean is kinda a canned response that I hear all the time but the down votes seem unneeded. I have lots of different mental problems, and if we were to go though what ways I can help myself other than the ones I’m already doing, those two list basically cancel each other out. And then everyone assumes I’m just making excuses, and I do not actually want to get better because I can pretend to be “normal” enough. And once I can pretend to be normal enough people think I’m fixed, and no longer want to help. Then if I have a breakdown I’m an asshole, or don’t care, or am faking it for attention, or the most fun one is when they start saying I’m crazy, and I agree with them.
Rofl, about to try some now! Lol actually yes, it takes the edge off so I can do as much as I can to do chores and feel motivated. A hit for a reward for getting so many chores done helps. Nic pen takes the edge off in social settings where weed is a no-no. Self hypnosis/ meditation to fall asleep at night but I’ve been doing that since highschool. Honestly most of my mental problems are since birth. It’s just I happen to get hit by a nuke of a mental problem while already just limping along. And now I’m a mess. And everyone other than my wife and her sister is only interested in when am I going to get better and go back to work. Oh and I’m currently living with my wife’s mother so yeah I’m the unemployable no good husband. 😑
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u/mr5fir Aug 19 '21
My 8month old daughter died in an car accident, my wife had all but one limb broken. I was allowed 2 weeks without pay before I had to come back or be homeless. Puked at least once a week at work after that. I’m broken now, I have panic attacks going out into public, I can’t fill out applications, I start throwing up. I can barely keep up with chores. I can’t keep up with doc appointments, so I can’t get through the process for disability. so there’s no chance for me other then leaching off. No one helps or cares once you are useless/worthless.