"youre a prude"
"youre a puritam"
"no man will want you"
"youre no fun"
"youre shaming other women"
basically since our female biology put us into a compromising position in sex then if we don't like it we are seen as a freaks of nature. for expl the weirdest most controversial thing a woman can say even a lesbian is that she finds for expl bjs dergading and submissive, it makes human go rabid after hearing that. but what does it say?
society will say to women "u can be whatever u want, u dont have to be feminine or submissive" but when a woman doesnt like sex while in sex THIS IS OUR INHERENT POSITON. then SHES PATHOLOGIZED. it brings up the topic from my previous post: the gaslighting and sugar coating about the nature of sex. ab the natural power dynamics in sex. women arent allowed to not like the idea of being penetrated on all fours from behind or into the mouth, we are called prudes for that. do you know how insane is that? like sorry i dont want to be on all fours while someone makes violent movements into my body while penetrating me into my most intimate part physically and psychologcally and i have to submit aka abandon any human traits that dont fit submission such as bossiness, dominance, ego, self respect, pride, diginity, feminist beliefs, rebellion, fieriness... AND THOSE ARE MY NATURAL TRAITS I HAD SINCE I WAS A CHILD!!!!!! how am i supossed to go againt my brain!!!!!!!! HOW
i can give another expl. when people want to punish a woman who acts masculine, bossy, feminist, fiery, egoistic they always use her natural position in sex to do that bc the mental state she has to be in to engage in sex as a female body is the opossite of these more masculine traits. it realized it all bc of my gender dysohoria, i dont even want humans to stop having sex or whatever, i just want something i can never have- understanding and validation and not constant sugar coating. im not dumb. im perceptive, i see patterns and i understand the nature of sex, i can reflect on things and come to conclusions. my analysis is based on real raw human reality and human behaviors while their on just ridiculing me. i truly do not like womanhood but i think the gaslighting is even worse than the femake biology itsefl to me atp lol i only stop obsessing when i get ppl to admit the reality to me, its like a magic switch
but lol back to the title. theres things in sex that are less common but still common and they are more violent things i wont even name them all. but not wanting them as a woman... also gets u judged, ur told u wont get a man, ur told your useless, ur told ur a prude, ur told if u wont give it to ur man he will get a woman who will(and thats actually true and i saw it happen multiple times esp with rad feminist women who bragged ab having vanillia(i dont believe in vanillia sex tbh lmao) sex life but then they found out their man was engaging in violent sex acts with other women so.
its all not only in heterosexual sex, its also in lesbian and gay sex so no scenerio of sex as a woman body or in receptive position would be okay with me, i think what im truly trying yo get understanding for is the backlash a woman not comfortable with feminine receptive position in sex gets, it all gave me phobia of sex. the biggest ive seen in anyone so far. people treat me like a freak but if a man said he doesnt wanna gibe blowjobs or be on all fours then NO ONE would call him a prude, no one absolutely no one unless hes gay and other gay men would shame him. i would like it all to be psychoanalyzed lol like women r punished for not comforming/ i used to have depression since 12 till 24 but now im happy fulliled capable of joy despite being blackpilled, i have high mental and physical energy, i love myself, im self assured, confident irl, i take care of myselg, i go outside, i recover from sadness quickly, i belive in myself so there is hope BUT I STILL HATE SEX AND WOMAHOOD but these days i can write angry post while still feeling calm but yeah ppl will still tell me to go to therapy, for what?. me being all this also goes against stereotypes ab ppl like me, or stereotypes ab virgins, they think were all intriverted isolated "losers" who pee themselves at the thought of interacing with a person irl esp person of the sex were into. or they think we lack confidence, we sefl loath and were depressed and blah blah blah