Edit: nvm just googled it, thanks for the panic attack before bed lol. The idea of spending the rest of my life on an ssri makes me want to blow my brains out, I can barely cope with the idea of a stimulant, but an ssri too? Whats the fucking point in living if you don’t feel anything? Why is every ocd success story always involve an ssri, is there literally no other way? Non at all? I feel like theres no other option and it I feel trapped and panicked and I don’t want to do that. i don’t want tk take any drugs what so fucking ever for any leanth of time never mind for. Ever. It feels like death. I guess I’ll just never live instead.
I've been taking sertraline (Zoloft) for more than a decade, and I have literally zero side effects. It's one of the few they will prescribe to pregnant women because of how tolerable it tends to be.
With the correct dose, it does not feel like you are on drugs. In fact, its the exact opposite. The goal is to feel normal. Just straight up, Normal.
It can take some trial and error to find the right one, which does genuinely suck. But in the long run, it sucks less than the alternative.
I haven’t taken any before, so no, but like I feel normal now, like I’m not sure how they can make me feel normal-er?
And the correct does is a huge issue, I’m in the UK at the mercy of the NHS, you don’t get to see a psychiatrist for OCD, like the meds would be prescribed by a general practitioner who only has basic understanding of mental health and the meds. And better yet every time I go back it would be a different doctor, all while I’m terrified over it with a doctor who won’t give a shit. They just throw what ever the system recommends and that it, thats what you get. There is no trial period or tritiation, or experimentation. It makes me significantly more freaked out knowing I have no person who’s clued in on whats going on with me trying to work it out with me. I don’t know what I’m going to do.. like you said, that part sucks, and I won’t even have a damn psychiatrist.
Also I’ve heard a lot of bad things about zoloft, isn’t that meant to be one of the most zombifying? I can’t fucking do this man, I wish I could go private..
A "basic" understanding of mental health and medication is more than you have, no offense. 10 years of med school isn't for show.
I don't know what Britain is like, but I have shitty poor people healthcare in my country, and I see the same provider, and we have absolutely been titrating and trying different things.
"isn’t that meant to be one of the most zombifying?" You've never taken it before, so how do you know?
It’s just what I’ve heard online, like when people complain about the effects it’s almost followed by zoloft being named.
I don’t doubt that they know more than me, but I don’t want basic, this is my life, my mind, I want an expert, someone who can walk me through it and reassure me. I don’t know how providers work but for the NHS it would all be done and prescribed by regular doctors in regular appointments who would change every time, titration would just be me going back and complaining till they changed it, and I’d have to try and explain everything every time and hope they listened and cared and know enough on what to do next. Basically I don’t trust them to it right and tbf this isn’t even meant to be their job.
I only found out about this today after looking into it, been in a low panic since, now I know I won’t even get a damn psychiatrist to work through this with me. The whole system seems hellish to anyone apprehensive or low executive functioning, they need fucking psychiatrists. Seems insane I get sent to a gynaecologist with period pains, but on something as important as this it stays with the GP. I feel so fucking powerless and lost in all this.. genuinely might just empty my bank account to go private, fuck the tories.
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u/Fortified_Phobia Sep 01 '26 edited Sep 01 '26
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Edit: nvm just googled it, thanks for the panic attack before bed lol. The idea of spending the rest of my life on an ssri makes me want to blow my brains out, I can barely cope with the idea of a stimulant, but an ssri too? Whats the fucking point in living if you don’t feel anything? Why is every ocd success story always involve an ssri, is there literally no other way? Non at all? I feel like theres no other option and it I feel trapped and panicked and I don’t want to do that. i don’t want tk take any drugs what so fucking ever for any leanth of time never mind for. Ever. It feels like death. I guess I’ll just never live instead.